ugh, i'm burnt out

[xristina]

this weekend was interesting, but i can't remember much of anything that went on other than him. (i won't use his name here, it's unimportant) when he told me that it was over with her, i coulnd't breathe. i swear to god, i just wasn't expecting it, and i guess that after three years of wishing, it just hit me like a ton of bricks, and i've been

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[xtaylerocksx]

when your best friends treat you like shit, what do you do, and where do you turn? because you cant turn to them, because they are the ones hurting you... i have no choice but to run away, and im going to talk to jason about all of this, and try to hang out with everyone one more time...but if things dont get better im finding differant friends, cause i deserve more then this... and so many people have told me i deserve more then this... i do everything for them christina...and they treat me like im disposable. i just want craig and them back... because thats where i belong.

much love
tay

WARNING: this is harsh but necessary

[xristina]

you make me crazy. you change your mind every other day about what does and does not make you happy. you’re so fucked up i can’t even begin to comprehend, which makes me love you that much more. i guess you should just do what you want, because nothing is going to change your mind.

one thing though, don’t you DARE come crying to me about missing brian if you break up with him. you have your chance, and it’s right now. if you don’t take that chance,it’s your own fault, and i’ll hear nothing more of it. you’ve waited so long, you got what you wanted,and now you’re ready to throw it away.

oh, and about craig and blah blah blah, you’ll get just as sick of them as you do of our group, so have fun. one more thing...i knew you’d go running back to jackie, and i’m right. any day now, you’re going to be with her again. have fun with that. she’ll walk all over you again, and make you feel like shit again, but go back for more. because that’s what you always do.

Re: WARNING: this is harsh but necessary

[xtaylerocksx]

its not about going back to jackie. its just maybe she was right, she told me everyone treats me like shit, and they do christina. pay attention the next time we all hang out, they treat me so bad that it makes me ill. its like i cant stand it, because im so tired of coming home and crying because of something that was said to me. they are supposed to be my friends and be supportive of me, and i dont feel any support, and i dont want to break up with brian, and i dont plan on it any time soon because i love him, but im scared christina, im so scared, do you have any idea what he is capable of doing to me? and its like i have no clue what he wants me to do, or how he wants me to act and that bothers me... i dont want to need everyone, cause then what will i do when they go away? what the fuck will i do

ugh, poison the well ***SMACK*** EMO-KID!!!! :)

[xristina]

like i said earlier, you're going to do whatever you want, but just think: would you be HAPPIER without the group? if so, get out. but if it would just make you sad and wistful, what's the point, y'know?

just think before you do anything drastic.
xoxoxo-
christina

"ooh child, things are gonna get easier.
ooh child, things will get brighter" - TUPAC (woot woot!)