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I'm really really really depressed.
I'm like crying my eyes out.
Has anybody stopped to think how much my life really sucks??
This is like a huge sob story but I don't give a fuck.
- My dad fucking hits me.
- My step dad, who was like my real dad died, and the last memory I have of him was him being a freako drunk.
- My mom works all the time, and Friday night and weekends shes with fucking JOHN.
- I moved
- I'm constantly made fun of and embarassed at school. And it sucks.
- My friends who PROMISED they'd stick by me even though I didn't live near them anymore have betrayed me
- I'm left out of everything my friends do now, and I just don't belong with them anymore.
- I never see any of my family. My sisters are around, but they just annoy me and scream and fight.
Think about it..I literally have no one.
The very few friends I have left are whats keeping me alive
I sound like a dork.
But its true.
I should die.
Who would miss me?
Seriously.
I'm fucking alone.
Does anybody even read this besides Kelso?
I feel like I'm just crying to no one now.
My dad would be happy if I died.
My mom would just go back working and spending time with her fucking idiot physco boyfriend.
My sisters would fight all through my funeral.
Maybe Matt would miss me.
I love Matt.
Jenna, Olivia and Alyssa would miss me.
But then again, they're 7,5 and 2.
Isn't that sad. The oldest person who would miss me
is 7.
Well. Matt's 17..he'd miss me.
I think.
My dog would miss me..and maybe my pussy..
The funny thing is..
maybe 1 or 2 people will comment
and say they love me or whatever
BUT they don't love me enough
to call me, or ask me to spend time with them
If anybody read through this..
I'm like amazed.
Shit..my mom's home from seeing her boyfriend
She's probably gonna see me crying
YAY!
Bye..