so..here i am on the phone...today i'm depressed...as usual....had a few drinks...feeling like my life is a joke...what am i doing here..i hate my life right now..i hate myself right now...i'd type more, but whats my feelings to you anyways

well..this is my wish list...because i am bored and sad ( Read more... )

thats what i like to call a big picture

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samson...adorable

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my livejournal sucks.

i'm not always going to chase you when you walk away

i want a better everything

so...here i am...about to pack in a couple of hours all my stuff...getting rid of most of it..i dont want to leave my house...once i think of it maybe leaving is the best for me...to start over new..but i'm staying here..its going to be tough ...but i think im staying here..and my parents move...i dont know...:\

..actually last night i figured out that...i will not be just 45 minutes away...but states away...in california...san diego..although my parents told me that i could stay if i find someone to stay with...which makes me sad because my sister made me promise her that i wouldnt stay with any of our family...because she would feel betrayed...i'm torn.. ( Read more... )

so yeah here i am..bored as hell...i think im going to go watch war of the worlds later on tonight...uhh...yeah i really really hope i get that job at petsmart...so someone wish me luck or something because i need a lot of it...i NEED that job :) so...get this i'm moving to the thirdworld of blunzer, tx i know some of u guys are like 'finally we ( Read more... )