I am in love ( Read more... )

i feel like running. fast and far. I don't really care about stuff anymore. I guess brian knows it all...or virtually all now...which leaves me completely lost, because no one knows it all...and him not caring will kill me.

i'm actually pretty fuckin happy here, its not so bad, it better than home, and i had a real nice night last night i guess

love is the most fucked up thing in the world ( Read more... )

yeah so after all that stuff Bill came over at 2, and we talked and hung out and just had a really nice time. It was like my thing with Mark, I love people who know me and who i am and how i am, he and i just talked about people from school and swimming and all sorts of nice stuff, it wasa excatly what i needed, he didnt leave until 7 and it was ( Read more... )

everyone left ( Read more... )

what part about abby doesnt drink is abby missing. ok I dont drink, im fucking grieving. I sit in my room and have people bring me drinks and i drinki in bed and cry...but no, no no no, I dont fucking drink so that is ending now. umm maybe after one more..yeah so thats that. i just had one more biggg sip and im out

I'm scared. Real scared. I kind of wish things would work out how I want they to. I've been listening to far too much El to Addison...I might be napping, I've had a pretty shitty day and all

today has been a really weird day ( Read more... )

I think Brian and I are uhh...I don't know ( Read more... )

yeah so Mark just left. That was interesting, a very good kind of interesting. I actually had a good time, he doesnt constantly say something to make me feel good or feel sexy or feel pretty, he talks to me, not that John doesnt, but he and i have so much more in common than anyone else i have met. We can just talk about anything, and a ton of ( Read more... )