i really need to express myself before i ruin myself. it feels so pure and simple but... i suck haha

but otherwise, life is wonderful and i'm enjoying every minute of it (:

JULIE AND I BEAT GOOF TROOP TODAY. IT'S TRUE, NO LIE ( Read more... )

As I'm sitting here eating kiwis and watching Hey! Arnold, I'm realizing that I don't want to grow up. I don't want to be eighteen. I don't want to go to college. I want to stay here and eat my mom's food and lounge around reading books. The bottom line is that I'm scared. I have to start a whole new life in like, a year and a half. I know it ( Read more... )

So today was definitely one of those days that just made me feel terrible about myself. It wasnt just one specific event, just a whole bunch of little things. But what really hit me today was one thought in particular. I hate Altoona soooo much, but where am I going to go? I don't know anywhere else. How can I just show up somewhere else and make a ( Read more... )

I LOVE SPRING!!! There is nothing better than a beautiful spring day. I love waking up to the birds chirping and the sun shining. It just makes me want to go out and live life. I feel like my heart is going to bust wide open every time I look outside. It doesn't help that I like someone right now. I don't think my heart can take all the excitement ( Read more... )

I think I've made a breakthrough, a breakthrough on the way that I want to live my life. Lately, all I've been doing is barely scraping my way by in school and everything else, and then wasting my life away on the weekends. Last night as I was lying on the floor with a whirling, aching head and alcohol coursing through my system, I realized what I ( Read more... )

i dont know what to do any more. no one even cares. the only thing i'm good for is taking up space and fucking myself over. i'm sorry that i was always in your way and that i never did anything to help anyone. i'm sorry that everything i ever did doesnt matter and no one will even remember or think about me. i'm sorry that i wasted your time and ( Read more... )

i hope i did the right thing. it feels like the right thing ( Read more... )

i do dumb things to myself and over-react. but thank god i have amazing friends to lift me back up. i seriously dont know what would have gone down if they hadnt been there for me. thank you to kelsie and dani for some hxc mario party (we finally kicked peach's ass). thank you to devin and julie for not letting me go home. and thank you to everyone ( Read more... )

best weekend i've had in a long time ( Read more... )