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GOD I fail at blogging anymore.. wow... honestly I fail pretty much at keeping up with any of my social media-esque things really. So don't take it personal eljay, lol.
Let's seeeeeee...
I've been doing a lot of spiritual and self-discovery work. I've been doing this "Discovering Your Destiny in the Shadow" course with Robert Ohotto. He's amazing. I can't even get into all the things right now that I've already learned, and there's still a couple weeks to go! But I have discovered some things about myself.. I know I never would have come to them on my own. Robert is an amazing teacher. He has a way of talking that makes you feel really comfortable with listening to him, not like he's lecturing at all - even when he is. And his perspectives, his understanding of things in his own way, really make it a totally different conversation than anything I've read before. “Ohotto style” he calls it lol. But I've learned so much about myself, about how my subconscious is operating and about things I learned in my childhood, growing up, that I didn't even realise I was acting out as an adult. Choices I've made in my life that were led by something buried in my unconscious, unhealthy, ugly programming that I didn't have any clue was making those calls. But I understand so much better now so many things that I've been thru. Why they happened, why I made some of the mistakes/choices I did in my life.. I don't want to get into all of it right now because it's very personal, really raw and deep in me, but it's a complete game-changer. I can say that without a doubt.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE~!
I've been networking around deviantART quite a bit lately. Posting newer pics. I've got some dolls done that I want to submit to groups and I figured it would look better if I didn't just come out of nowhere and start like HEY LOOK AT MAH STUFF so I've been liking and commenting on things in the groups so I feel more involved, so I'm more active. I want to be better caught up on stuff y'know? Inevitably tho, that only leads to more groups I'm interested in and more artists to watch fml. *headdesk* I found a Lalaloopsy group (amoung other groups) which makes me really happy because I love these little dolls. They've totally become my obsession. I'm working on rearranging things in my room & my bookshelves so I can make better use of my space. Have more space for my new dolls and maybe get rid of some old stuff that isn't so much me anymore.. I want to sort stuff out because I know a lot of things in me are changing.
I'm still working on my Adam Glamnation doll (#procrastination4ever) but I've finished the boots on one of them at least. Then I'll just have the hair & eyes! I'm excited, I've just been putting off working on pretty much everything and perfectionisting myself to the point of madness. I do have Papa and Stein tho, and the Klaine squirrels! They're so cute. I love this style. So proud of them.
What else? What else?
Basically given up on watching Idol this season. I really liked most of the top 24 going in, but something's happened to so many of them since they hit to 12. I don't even know.. I'm just.. non-plussed. Absolutely love Colton tho. That's all I watch, honestly. I just look up Colton's performance on youtube & skip the show. The last one I tried to watch was the Billy Joel ep. I made it up to Phil & I was just like NEVERMINDWITHTHIS ugh. So I took back the wasted 2 hours a week of my time lol. Colton's amazing tho. In the lines of Adam/Dave the way he reinvents things to his own style while still sticking solidly to their crappy themes. Love him. I do kinda like Skylar, but she's hit or miss. I don't get the Phillip obsession. Everything is monotonous growling and snarling. There are no changes in anything he sings. No different notes. He comes onstage looking like he couldn't give a shit less and they just dragged him away from the tv to make him sing. I can't. Whatever tho, Colton is hands-down the best thing on the show. He has such passion, such conviction and power behind everything he sings. And his sound is so alt-rock-pop, which is pretty much my fave genre of music. So yeah.. I've said before, he's so relevant to my interests it hurts lol.
I know everyone loves Jessica and Joshua. Jessica is just another diva singer. Nothing special tbh. And from the minute he opened his mouth Joshua's been nothing but Jacob Lusk knock-off. Now I did really like Jacob last year, and I loved Pia. But they were more emotionally charged performers. Not just showing off but feeling their music. And I felt honestly moved when they performed. I don't feel it from Jessica or Joshua and I think it's unfair that they both got sent home last year (Pia was especially robbed!) and it's looking like their second rate clones are going to take it this year.
ALSO
The Voice. Can I just start with Adam and Blake because OMGTHESEGUYS. Their rampant bromance is killing me and I can tell Xtina is getting bitchy about all the attention the two of them are getting because every time they say soemthing bromance-y she says something nasty. Love them.
As for the talent tho... Can we just give Chris Mann an album and let someone else take a shot. He's literally flawless. If the competition is really to find The Voice, he has it. It's not even a contest. Every time he sings I think Josh Groban. He's stunning. I could listen to him sing for days and never get tired of it.
If anyone else could win over him, I say it's Tony Vincent, who is equally flaw-free in a completely different way. I think those two would make the most epic finale ever tbh. They both deserve to be signed the minute they step off stage.
I was really sad when the Shield Brothers went home, but I've seen online that they've raised enough money for their album thru fan support on Kickstarter, so I'm excited for them. I really loved them. Their energy was great and their sound was just so much fun, while still being talented. Love.
Of who is left, I really like Lindsey. She sounds to me like an alt-rock Katy Perry so yeah, love. Her version on “Someone You Used To Know” was really interesting. Kinda creepy, serial killer ex-gf but awesome. I love her vibe.
I liked Ashley much better on “Right Thru You” that her first song, so maybe Xtina should let her pick her own songs. She was really kind of awkward on the first one and her vibe didn't match the sound but the 2nd song was great. She totally had it all on the same page then.
Jordis is a predator-head who I hated back on Rockstar years ago & she hasn't done anything to make me love her any more this time around really.
RaeLynn blew me away with “Wake Up Call”. She was like loligoth alt-rock country scary ass awesomeness. I loved her sfm in that performance. If that's the route she stays in, I'm all about it. (Kind of shipping her with Lindsey after their two perfomances tbh lol.)
I'm looking forward to seeing what Adam & CeeLo's teams do this week. It's been really fun to watch so far.
Speaking of The Voice! Started watching the UK version and I'm dying! These judges are phenom & hilarious. I'm already shipping Danny/will.i.am lol. I can't help myself. The faces they keep making at each. I just can't. I love Jessie J. It's like she's having a slumber party & wants everyone to come and gets so sad when they don't pick her lol. Tom Jones is killing me. He just turns around and he's like “oh hi, I'm Tom Jones” like he doesn't even have to compete. It's crazy. I had no idea that he was treated like such a legend in the UK. He gets no respect in the US but we're such a bunch of flighty bitches with no attention span. It's sad. I'm listening to him talk about how he's been doing music for 60 years, working with Elvis, Aretha Franklin, just everyone, Sammy Davis Jr & Frank Sinatra. I mean come the fuck on who can say that shit in the music biz in American right now? Just wow.
But idek what I'm gonna do with this show because I've watched the 1st two blind auditions and I've loved almost everyone they've put thru. Maybe 2 I didn't care for? The talent is crazy. I can't wait for the live shows.
Have also been watching Celeb Apprentice this season bc I heard Clay & Penn were on. And Lisa Lampinelli, who I loved before I watched. I have been pleasantly surprised by who some people turned out to be and horribly shocked by others. I love Arsenio. Dee Snider has surprised me (I know I shouldn't have assumptions about him but I'm only human). Penn is great in so many different ways. Debbie has turned out to be a snotty, selfish fake little bitch and I wasn't sorry to see her go. I was impressed with Tia and Patricia and how respectful and graceful they were, not wanting to be in the middle of all the typical girl on girl catfighting and nastiness but be above that. I appreciated that. Theresa has proven to be not nearly as wretched as I assumed she would be (I hate all those Real Housewives shows and wasn't looking forward to her being there - again, bad assumption on my part). I think it's a shame that they constantly want to beat up on Dayana. She really does try to help with every challenge, even if she's not the best at everything, but she has ideas and input and more than once I've heard her make suggestions that maybe could have saved her team if they'd listened but no on will. It's dumb on their part and I don't know why they do it. The worst for me has been Lisa. I loved her - absolutely LOVED her - before I watched the show. But I was always under the impression that her act was really just that, an act. And that she was really a nice person, very friendly offstage. But she's a horribly person from everything that I've seen. She's bossy, angry, cruel, insulting, selfish. Just awful. I don't think I could ever watch one of her shows again because I can't wait til she's off my tv. Aubrey I actually think will a little of the right mentoring & support could turn out to be a really great business woman. She has tons of ideas and knows how to get things done, how to play the game. She's not the nicest person, but I think that's to be expected when you have to claw your way thru a bunch of catty bitches, both on Apprentice and in Danity Kane. No, I don't think she's great right now, but I can see the potential. I was really shocked when she just walked off. I thought she was going to win it, honestly. I figured the last 4 would be Aubrey, Lisa, Clay and Penn.
Ok this is srsly like the longest entry in ever so I'm gonna shut up and try to update more often so I don't ramble on as much next time. :D
Bless you if you actually read all that lol. Honestly, I'd be surprised if anybody's still reading my blog at all..
Let's seeeeeee...
I've been doing a lot of spiritual and self-discovery work. I've been doing this "Discovering Your Destiny in the Shadow" course with Robert Ohotto. He's amazing. I can't even get into all the things right now that I've already learned, and there's still a couple weeks to go! But I have discovered some things about myself.. I know I never would have come to them on my own. Robert is an amazing teacher. He has a way of talking that makes you feel really comfortable with listening to him, not like he's lecturing at all - even when he is. And his perspectives, his understanding of things in his own way, really make it a totally different conversation than anything I've read before. “Ohotto style” he calls it lol. But I've learned so much about myself, about how my subconscious is operating and about things I learned in my childhood, growing up, that I didn't even realise I was acting out as an adult. Choices I've made in my life that were led by something buried in my unconscious, unhealthy, ugly programming that I didn't have any clue was making those calls. But I understand so much better now so many things that I've been thru. Why they happened, why I made some of the mistakes/choices I did in my life.. I don't want to get into all of it right now because it's very personal, really raw and deep in me, but it's a complete game-changer. I can say that without a doubt.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE~!
I've been networking around deviantART quite a bit lately. Posting newer pics. I've got some dolls done that I want to submit to groups and I figured it would look better if I didn't just come out of nowhere and start like HEY LOOK AT MAH STUFF so I've been liking and commenting on things in the groups so I feel more involved, so I'm more active. I want to be better caught up on stuff y'know? Inevitably tho, that only leads to more groups I'm interested in and more artists to watch fml. *headdesk* I found a Lalaloopsy group (amoung other groups) which makes me really happy because I love these little dolls. They've totally become my obsession. I'm working on rearranging things in my room & my bookshelves so I can make better use of my space. Have more space for my new dolls and maybe get rid of some old stuff that isn't so much me anymore.. I want to sort stuff out because I know a lot of things in me are changing.
I'm still working on my Adam Glamnation doll (#procrastination4ever) but I've finished the boots on one of them at least. Then I'll just have the hair & eyes! I'm excited, I've just been putting off working on pretty much everything and perfectionisting myself to the point of madness. I do have Papa and Stein tho, and the Klaine squirrels! They're so cute. I love this style. So proud of them.
What else? What else?
Basically given up on watching Idol this season. I really liked most of the top 24 going in, but something's happened to so many of them since they hit to 12. I don't even know.. I'm just.. non-plussed. Absolutely love Colton tho. That's all I watch, honestly. I just look up Colton's performance on youtube & skip the show. The last one I tried to watch was the Billy Joel ep. I made it up to Phil & I was just like NEVERMINDWITHTHIS ugh. So I took back the wasted 2 hours a week of my time lol. Colton's amazing tho. In the lines of Adam/Dave the way he reinvents things to his own style while still sticking solidly to their crappy themes. Love him. I do kinda like Skylar, but she's hit or miss. I don't get the Phillip obsession. Everything is monotonous growling and snarling. There are no changes in anything he sings. No different notes. He comes onstage looking like he couldn't give a shit less and they just dragged him away from the tv to make him sing. I can't. Whatever tho, Colton is hands-down the best thing on the show. He has such passion, such conviction and power behind everything he sings. And his sound is so alt-rock-pop, which is pretty much my fave genre of music. So yeah.. I've said before, he's so relevant to my interests it hurts lol.
I know everyone loves Jessica and Joshua. Jessica is just another diva singer. Nothing special tbh. And from the minute he opened his mouth Joshua's been nothing but Jacob Lusk knock-off. Now I did really like Jacob last year, and I loved Pia. But they were more emotionally charged performers. Not just showing off but feeling their music. And I felt honestly moved when they performed. I don't feel it from Jessica or Joshua and I think it's unfair that they both got sent home last year (Pia was especially robbed!) and it's looking like their second rate clones are going to take it this year.
ALSO
The Voice. Can I just start with Adam and Blake because OMGTHESEGUYS. Their rampant bromance is killing me and I can tell Xtina is getting bitchy about all the attention the two of them are getting because every time they say soemthing bromance-y she says something nasty. Love them.
As for the talent tho... Can we just give Chris Mann an album and let someone else take a shot. He's literally flawless. If the competition is really to find The Voice, he has it. It's not even a contest. Every time he sings I think Josh Groban. He's stunning. I could listen to him sing for days and never get tired of it.
If anyone else could win over him, I say it's Tony Vincent, who is equally flaw-free in a completely different way. I think those two would make the most epic finale ever tbh. They both deserve to be signed the minute they step off stage.
I was really sad when the Shield Brothers went home, but I've seen online that they've raised enough money for their album thru fan support on Kickstarter, so I'm excited for them. I really loved them. Their energy was great and their sound was just so much fun, while still being talented. Love.
Of who is left, I really like Lindsey. She sounds to me like an alt-rock Katy Perry so yeah, love. Her version on “Someone You Used To Know” was really interesting. Kinda creepy, serial killer ex-gf but awesome. I love her vibe.
I liked Ashley much better on “Right Thru You” that her first song, so maybe Xtina should let her pick her own songs. She was really kind of awkward on the first one and her vibe didn't match the sound but the 2nd song was great. She totally had it all on the same page then.
Jordis is a predator-head who I hated back on Rockstar years ago & she hasn't done anything to make me love her any more this time around really.
RaeLynn blew me away with “Wake Up Call”. She was like loligoth alt-rock country scary ass awesomeness. I loved her sfm in that performance. If that's the route she stays in, I'm all about it. (Kind of shipping her with Lindsey after their two perfomances tbh lol.)
I'm looking forward to seeing what Adam & CeeLo's teams do this week. It's been really fun to watch so far.
Speaking of The Voice! Started watching the UK version and I'm dying! These judges are phenom & hilarious. I'm already shipping Danny/will.i.am lol. I can't help myself. The faces they keep making at each. I just can't. I love Jessie J. It's like she's having a slumber party & wants everyone to come and gets so sad when they don't pick her lol. Tom Jones is killing me. He just turns around and he's like “oh hi, I'm Tom Jones” like he doesn't even have to compete. It's crazy. I had no idea that he was treated like such a legend in the UK. He gets no respect in the US but we're such a bunch of flighty bitches with no attention span. It's sad. I'm listening to him talk about how he's been doing music for 60 years, working with Elvis, Aretha Franklin, just everyone, Sammy Davis Jr & Frank Sinatra. I mean come the fuck on who can say that shit in the music biz in American right now? Just wow.
But idek what I'm gonna do with this show because I've watched the 1st two blind auditions and I've loved almost everyone they've put thru. Maybe 2 I didn't care for? The talent is crazy. I can't wait for the live shows.
Have also been watching Celeb Apprentice this season bc I heard Clay & Penn were on. And Lisa Lampinelli, who I loved before I watched. I have been pleasantly surprised by who some people turned out to be and horribly shocked by others. I love Arsenio. Dee Snider has surprised me (I know I shouldn't have assumptions about him but I'm only human). Penn is great in so many different ways. Debbie has turned out to be a snotty, selfish fake little bitch and I wasn't sorry to see her go. I was impressed with Tia and Patricia and how respectful and graceful they were, not wanting to be in the middle of all the typical girl on girl catfighting and nastiness but be above that. I appreciated that. Theresa has proven to be not nearly as wretched as I assumed she would be (I hate all those Real Housewives shows and wasn't looking forward to her being there - again, bad assumption on my part). I think it's a shame that they constantly want to beat up on Dayana. She really does try to help with every challenge, even if she's not the best at everything, but she has ideas and input and more than once I've heard her make suggestions that maybe could have saved her team if they'd listened but no on will. It's dumb on their part and I don't know why they do it. The worst for me has been Lisa. I loved her - absolutely LOVED her - before I watched the show. But I was always under the impression that her act was really just that, an act. And that she was really a nice person, very friendly offstage. But she's a horribly person from everything that I've seen. She's bossy, angry, cruel, insulting, selfish. Just awful. I don't think I could ever watch one of her shows again because I can't wait til she's off my tv. Aubrey I actually think will a little of the right mentoring & support could turn out to be a really great business woman. She has tons of ideas and knows how to get things done, how to play the game. She's not the nicest person, but I think that's to be expected when you have to claw your way thru a bunch of catty bitches, both on Apprentice and in Danity Kane. No, I don't think she's great right now, but I can see the potential. I was really shocked when she just walked off. I thought she was going to win it, honestly. I figured the last 4 would be Aubrey, Lisa, Clay and Penn.
Ok this is srsly like the longest entry in ever so I'm gonna shut up and try to update more often so I don't ramble on as much next time. :D
Bless you if you actually read all that lol. Honestly, I'd be surprised if anybody's still reading my blog at all..