so i feel like i know the truth behind most things and even secrets that i couldnt tell anyone. guys are so hard to trust. but ive never seen anyone go to higher lengths to be with someone who didnt want them back, but me i never thought it was worth going higher for a guy who didnt want me or want anything to do with me. friends is what we ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to me!

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i got a letter from mike the other day, he said being in jail sucks and he never wants to go back there again, well hes got 3yrs, 2months and a week left. so yeah, ill be almost 21 by the time he gets out of there, i was so excitied when i got the letter, my moms like why would you be so excitied to get a letter from someone whos in jail, oh she ( Read more... )

i dont know anymore. i hate being confused. im about to drop everything right now and focus on me and what i want. i need something real, and i need something for me ( Read more... )

its happened, mike has finally went to jail. for four years and ive been writing about it for the past six months in my journal and wrote about him and how i wanted him to be my everything, come to think of it its sad and it wasnt worth it, it wasnt even worth doing anything with him or even kissing him i sometimes wish we were just friends and ( Read more... )

school is out in six more days. i only had two exams so, monday is my last day. tomorrow, im going swimming with mike, amanda, and will. i dont feel like staying there forever though cos i hate the ride ( Read more... )

i got into a car accident yesturday, im fine just got a few bruises here and there, a rash on my back, my knee is like busted up but its not bad just really swollen and three black and blues on the side of the cut. and a big bruise on my foot thats why i didnt go to work today. =\

its scary cos what if i actually died...

didnt go to school today. didnt feel like it honestly. schools almost over with a month a head. friday was jr prom but i didnt go friends went and they told me there stories, i swear the people i go to school with think they are so the shit, but yet they cant come to see how grimey they really make themselves. but as long as they had fun ( Read more... )

i hate living at home right now. i cant stand it all my brothers do is fight and so does my dad, seriously what kind of family is this? a dumb ass one if you ask me ( Read more... )