Some thoughts and pictures
I wanted to post some new pictures about the last couple of weeks. Also wanted to get some things off my mind.
Yeah I know I'm naked. But look at my pretty hair!!
Cute, yes?
Crested gecko! That's Tom, our resident breeder male.
Getting pretty to go out to eat with the parentals.
I got slutted up to have some fun at Allyson's in JP.
We weren't making out. We were actually drunk and kind of stoned so we started growling and biting at eachother's faces really close...
P requested breasts. So here are some boobies. And yes, they're mine =]
Scott doing what he does best at the reptile show in Hamburg. That's a burmese python he's being all manly with.
This crested gecko hatched ON MY BIRTHDAY! I'm calling him, Leo.
This is a sunburst veiled chameleon that we are babysitting!
A really nice mojave ball python that we're hoping to breed in the fall to make some awesome babies!
I hate when people amp things up for you and you get all excited...only to have them not follow through. That and old habits constantly returning after someone has been saying over and over that they are changing. Just frustrating and a hard reminder of a lot of the things I feel like I had to live with in relationships with a majority of the people in my life in Carver. I dropped a lot of friends because it was clearly evident that some people just don't give a shit about anybody or anything and make you feel like a fucking outcast for either speaking up about it or not following the crowd. I'm done following.
Anybody know of any bisexual/open relationship websites or anything?
I'm tired of fake people. It really drives me nuts sometimes.
I feel like things are slowly changing in almost every sense of the word. I'm re-evaluating a lot of things and figuring out what I want to dedicate myself to in the future. I really want to deepen my important relationships and reinforce our bonds because I feel like I'm really defined by those I surround myself with. I feel like I'm ready to act on a lot of the things I've been mulling over for years. I need to do these things for myself. I'm going to be going to some therapy for awhile. I'm going to see a woman who specializes in life coaching and self-esteem boosting and that kind of thing. I feel like it will help me get over this huge paranoia/inferiority complex I have about being a teacher.
I want to continue to explore my sexuality. Our relationship really is so amazing. I feel like he's helped me to grow sexually and emotionally at the same time. We explore new things constantly and it never feels weird or out of place. I want to do everything with him. I feel like it's made me more confident in myself and reminds me of how beautiful I really am. I love adventurous and kinky sex. It really makes me grow as a person.
Life is good. Been true to the promise I made to myself a while ago that I wasn't going to deal with hurtful bullshit anymore. If people are being rediculous then I don't have to expose myself to that. There are plenty of amazing people in my life who support me. I just have to remember that.