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[xshyxmandyx]

well, i decided to do some reminiscing(sp?) to entertain myself. im not on the verge of tears bc i remember how good chad's comment made me feel to this post and i wish it were still true. the truth of it is, i dont think i was ever really as close to anyone as i like to think. i just really wanted to be good friends with everyone but i look back

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[chadisfaggish]

well, the thing is we did see you as a friend back then. i just dont want to go to colorguard practices lately, i dont feel welcome anymore.

[xshyxmandyx]

you dont feel welcome?!?!?!? are you kidding me? i love when you come to a practice, well the two times you've been anyway. it may not seem like i care much but i honestly do. it would be awesome if you came to more practices.

[chadisfaggish]

well it seems like you dont care to be honest, and i just dont feel welcome. the only people i really feel i owe it to to go are the coaches, since i miss them dearly. other than that, i feel like the whole time i stand there as the center of attention and i get nothing done for the team and im just not a welcome part of it anymore.

[memoryof_wings]

well, i've been trying to hang out with you, but you are either with jim or whatever. which isn't a bad thing, but we need to hang out more.

[xshyxmandyx]

i know and thats part of the reason why i feel like such shyt. the way i look at it is im just surprised that i have as many friends as i do, i feel like i should have none. sorry bout the 'pity-me-pity-me' but this is my lj and i can say what i'd like. and im not saying that in a mean way to anyone in particular, just to anyone that is getting annoyed by me, lol