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i hate who i've become. you were right all along. i am a terrible person. i'm not even sure who to blame for it. i wasn't brought up to be rude for no apparent reason. i really wish i could change myself, i hate that i could hurt someone by just saying something. i also have to learn to disagree for once, to not just agree to make people happy or fit in or whatever. i accused someone of doing that and she was one of the best friends i've ever had. (i'm sorry cp<3). and now look at me, doing the same thing. when maybe she didn't even do it in the first place. i admit though, that i don't mean to do it. i don't think before i say things and i have to start doing so before i really get myself in trouble or hurt someone. especially another person i care very much about. even if i just keep things to myself once in a while it wouldn't be so bad. i really have to change this. i do. and i will. or at least, i'll try. if i can't do it then i might as well isolate myself on a deserted island. even then i'd probably find someone or something to be cruel towards.
fuck this.