fucking polish bastard neighbour fuck. WTF. IM GONNA STAB HIM... ARGHHHH! um, not gonna get into that. what else, oh. i miss him already. i hope he misses me too... i mean id understand if he doesnt because well, i just would. i hope he does. i like him. i dont care what anyone says. he held my hand, and it felt right. so fuck you all - and fuck ( Read more... )

bishop brought me fevers and mirrors. barrie brought me some ice cream and chips. marc came over for a nap... and to listen to the cd and eat the snacks. i think he is my favorite person to nap with. yeah. he is. i really hope i get to talk to jonny later, i feel bad for being a bitch to him. ah well... back to my room sarahs room. this basement is ( Read more... )

fuck, im sleeping it off.
im sick of this feeling...

i fucking want to die.

oh, my mistake.
ugh. fucking guy.
i spoke too soon.
my heart jumped,
into my throat.
this isn't good...

i waited up as late as i could, my mistake. my mistake...

...and i kissed you in a style that clark gable would have admired, i thought it classic.

i've been thinking about him. more than i should.

...would i be cooler if i spelled my name "JXSS" ?! pfft. i SO would. 'cause its all about SAVING THE HXC SCENE... haha, all i wanna do is be a rapper baby. hmm so, i hate school. worst week ever AND ITS ONLY WEDNESDAY! arrgh... oh so get this, I GOT MY HISTORY CREDIT. LAST YEAR. IM FAILING IT THIS YEAR... I SHOULDNT EVEN BE TAKING IT THIS YEAR!!! ( Read more... )

i finally deleted him. almost entirely. i need to shake myself of this feeling. this is beginging to look ugly. i think i just must be an awful person... there really is no other explination.