last night was awesome first, jason and i hung out, which i really enjoyed, then volleyball, we lost badly but who really cares, there's something fun about team sports at ten at night, and then, we won, yes, that's right, i was in boston when the redsox broke their curse, life is good. big night, big night, and big weekend, halloween, hanging out ( Read more... )

some days, like today, i don't want to see anyone. or rather, i don't want to be social. i miss being at home on these days, because when i'm at home, i'm around people who have their own things that have to get done, and we all just coexist. there's no real nead to say anything, just to be around, and discuss what comes up, or nothing, or ( Read more... )

so, at the deathcab show tonight, which by the way was amazing, i started thinking about things. no particular reason, maybe just seeing lots of couples around. and i was wondering, is there some natural reason that being alone is bad? is there really some sort of biological reason that we aren't complete? or is it possible, just maybe that it' ( Read more... )

just got back from the gym. hell though it may be, i'm really starting to enjoy it. my body is starting to be able to handle more than before, and if i'm not mistaken, it's starting to look better too. and it makes me feel good, like i'm really doing something that's good for me. and all i can think, is if i keep doing this for the rest of my ( Read more... )

i know, i know it's been a while. there's been a lot of life to attend to, and not much time to do anything other than try to hold back the squalor that is my room in between being immensely social. and read, i've done tons of reading. in fact, most of today was reading. this weekend was at once, good, interesting, and kind of made me realize ( Read more... )

i had the most amazing class today, drama was amazing. we were talking about pygmalion, and i swear, i have never thought so hard in my life. it was so wonderful. i raced home and layed the groundwork for what is going to be a phenominal term paper, then i read and did things super earnestly, and once again, i am all set for the week. school is ( Read more... )

since i decided to skip class agian to have sleep that i don't necessarily need i figure i should do something with my time. so here i am posting. (i'm the most productive gal around town i am) anyway ( Read more... )

the past four or five days, have turned so much upside down. i lost good memories, and a good friend in one swoop. i dont know what to think, or even who i ma any more. it's crazy, everything is so messed up. and i'm losing this big big chapter in my life so quickly. he's leaving, and never coming back, and all that was wonderful and horrible ( Read more... )

so i saw sham tonight. sham of all people. (we were friends my senior year of highschool, when i was in dover) somehow (even though we go to school in the same city) i never thought i'd see her again. she'd totally stopped being in my thoughts or anything. i saw her, and immediately felt weird and unhappy. she reminded me of how unhappy i was ( Read more... )