let's play a game. do you want to play? sure you do.

i think it's completely fucked.

enough said.

for now

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i was up until 2:30 am last night .
just staring at my bathroom door
i almost didn't make it into work today
my eyes feel like bees are stinging them

pieces of my heart break away like chipped paint
i'm not sure i can take much more of this

I hate the feeling when I know I am headed back for depression. It's almost like I can't stop it. I've been doing so well now for about a month. I have felt better than I have felt in my entire life! I've been enjoying things that I really used to. I am in love more than ever with Josh and I live in a really beautiful area ( Read more... )

I read books ( Read more... )

The day that everyone posted old photos of me... some from high school which I have never seen!

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I just got off the phone with Gerry. I am so blessed to have someone like him to reach out to me. These past few weeks have just felt so overwhelmingly crazy. Everyone wants to know where I am at ... and when I will make a decision and what is best for me ( Read more... )

i hate to sound like one of those girls but ...

i love joshy! :)

I have seriously been neglecting writing in here ... but with good reason I promise ( Read more... )

For Lent I decided to give up alcohol. It's day two and I don't know what I was thinking. .. It's not like I can afford to buy myself herbal goodness in place of it! It will be a challenge but hopefully I'll be supported. I am allowed to have 1 glass of wine with dinner or something. I should have given up being stressed out. I think that would ( Read more... )