im scared. i dont know how much longer i can go on like this.. its been over three years. the second i think im done i never fail to dissapoint myself. but then again, in a way its not dissapointing. it's control. it lets me know that i still have control over something at least. its a release and comfort. but with that comes the reminder of the ( Read more... )

havent written in a while ( Read more... )

so i went to my knee doctor guy and he said i dislocated my knee cap so im out of anything physical for a month. not too shabby considering what it could have been.. torn ACL or something like that. soo im not too pissed ( Read more... )

homecoming was absolutely amazing. me and steph went to amvets and got AMAZING dresses and makeup and then went to my house to get ready. then jill called and came over too!! :-) yay! the actual homecoming wasnt the best but it was better being not completely sober, and on crutches. very interesting mix. after we all went to trevors. and i mean ( Read more... )

blah, second last game of the season, AT frontier, and i blow my knee out. beautiful. i felt like such a retard sitting on the field like bawling my eyes out haha. went to the mac center and got xrays, the doctor said i pulled my knee cap out of socket and sprained my knee and put me on crutches. im not supposed to play for a few days. shitty. i ( Read more... )

trevor and eric just left! :-( oh well i'll see them tomorrow ( Read more... )

finally we won a game :-) its about time. good job ladies! haha i was so upset at the end of the game cause it was my last home game on JV and i cried :-( so sad! so this girl pulled my hair and i screamed at her and called her a fucking bitch and i didnt even get carded. nice ( Read more... )

ha, another wonderful friday night. told the fam i was sleeping at amandas, and i really was going to until about 11 and just decided to fuck it and go out all night and be homeless. we just kinda stood around town and whatnot till about 1 then trevor steph eric and i decided to go to tops and they bought hot dogs and other food and we went to ( Read more... )

yesterday was pretty good. trevor picked me up for school and we went to tim hortons :-) thank you baby! then my game wasnt till 5 so we got to hang out again after school yayyy... meh, decent game, tied against west seneca east.. we should have won but the officials are shitty. rar. i went out for a bit w/ shev and we had a nice talk, then met up ( Read more... )

did i ever mention how much i love the hamburg girls jv soccer team? and how much i love losing? i just love it. i dont have anything better to do with my time than that. i like it so much i dont even know what the score was tonight. and i like how people come to watch too. thats really cool. but actually i would like to thank brooks, chris ( Read more... )