..i hate that i've cried so hard over you..

what a fucking waste of time..

she's not suposed to call us. she's not suposed to be withing 100 feet of us. and still-- somehow-- she's got us wrapped up in the eye of her hurricane.

i can't believe she would lie about my grandma having a stroke! what did she expect would come from it?? what- she thought that if we went to the hospital to see my grandma- she could somehow ( Read more... )

my grandma had a stroke last night..

but i feel so helpless.

is anyone's prom comming up? or special occasion? like graduation or anything?

my dad owns a luxury sedan company- so if anyone needs any kind of transportation here's the link >> www.request@oldpuebloluxury.com

sometimes it's fragile and breaks on a bad day ( Read more... )

daytime tv is... interesting... i guess ( Read more... )

no one was around at lunch so carlo and i decided to walk and have one of our little theorapy sessions ( Read more... )

i called him this morning and his dad picked up. i asked if samy was there and he was all " who is this?" and the minute i told him who i was he says "samy's buzy. goodbye ( Read more... )

i don't want to end it with samy.
i care about him too much. i just need to know that i'm important to him.

blah i feel so dumb... all day i've been having this little war with myself- and samy doesn't even know any of it..