"and they probably thought i was stupid for that too."
thats what happens when you finally become yourself. for years we just sit around with this false sense of individuality. and then something happens inside. and we snap. and thats when we realize who we really are.
and most people arent ever ready for it. and other people wont understand you. or hate the fact that you are the very thing they can't be.
but oh well. just be glad you got there first. cause everyone goes through it.
and life is never perfect. so even the happiest moments have consequences. you cant base your fullfillment on one day. or your current situation. you have to think about where you are going and where youve been. and then you realize that there is something to be happy about. either way.
i dont know what that has to do with anything. but you made me think of all that. so i shared it with you.
me too. i love you for that. and i think you're right. i just wish that I had a place to go and an idea of how to get there. i wish where i was i had done more. nothing different, really. not much. just more. i'm beyond it. it just goes back to that whole anticipating with nothing to anticipate thing. it frustrates me.
i can't even tell you how much i admire and appreciate and adore you. i wouldn't know where to begin.
i miss your little face right now. your little non-korean face. right now i am starting to get high for the fourth time today (my face is feeling a little fuzzy and my body is swaying, and it feels nice.) i have been sleeping all day and i'm not in very much pain, even when the generic brand of hydrocodeine wears off, so i'm hoping it won't go downhill from here. i got your comment; i appreciated it a whole lot<3 i wuv you, too. why don't we hang out more outside of school? let's have a sleepover soon? i would like that a lot, and we both know you can't say no to a pretty girl who just got out of surgery. (i'm not very puffy, so that last statement is relatively true. except i'm not allowed to wear make-up.)
awwww. i'm glad your mommy can stay home with you, pretty girl. i hope y'all watch some good movies. and a sleepover? most definitely. but, uh, take it easy there, killer. hydrocodeine's some powerful stuff. we ain't talkin' midol, here. ;)
and we finished the newspaper. but of course, we had to trip over every hurdle to get it done. cap't d has it (haha. silly will...)so hopefully it'll be at the printer monday. just a lil fyi. <3
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well i do say.
i wish i could have a deep conversation with you.
"and they probably thought i was stupid for that too."
thats what happens when you finally become yourself.
for years we just sit around with this false sense of individuality. and then something happens inside. and we snap. and thats when we realize who we really are.
and most people arent ever ready for it.
and other people wont understand you.
or hate the fact that you are the very thing they can't be.
but oh well.
just be glad you got there first.
cause everyone goes through it.
and life is never perfect.
so even the happiest moments have consequences.
you cant base your fullfillment on one day. or your current situation. you have to think about where you are going and where youve been. and then you realize that there is something to be happy about. either way.
i dont know what that has to do with anything.
but you made me think of all that. so i shared it with you.
hope to talk to you sometime.
<3
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i can't even tell you how much i admire and appreciate and adore you. i wouldn't know where to begin.
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and we finished the newspaper. but of course, we had to trip over every hurdle to get it done. cap't d has it (haha. silly will...)so hopefully it'll be at the printer monday. just a lil fyi. <3
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