Starting the survey:
I'm going to be doing double posts today, getting all of these survey questions out of the way (at least the ones I've finished and can fit into one post). My next post will be about progress on other things and updates on life.
1. Who are you? Ashley.
2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? A.) I’m not as mean as I seem to be, B.) I’m not as interesting as I seem at first, and C.) I have a daughter, one on the way, and am not interested in your advice.
3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing? Trying to write, taking care of Kiya, and being with Frank.
4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time). I liked all of my Lit, history, and computer classes. Everything else I hated.
5. What is your biggest goal for this year? Become a better person.
6. Where do you want to be in 5 years? Living with Frank, with my/our kids, happy, and successful in something.
7. What stage of life are you in right now? A constant transition from immaturity and being an adult.
8. Are you more child-like or childish? Childish.
9. What is the last thing you said out loud? “Okay.”
10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? I’m not sure one could describe everything as well as I’d like.
11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes? No, but I’m not opposed to doing so.
12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same? It has its ups and downs, but things are almost always looking up when I think positively.
13. Does time really heal all wounds? I wouldn’t say it heals them, it just gives you time to accept what’s happened and move on.
14. How do you handle a rainy day? Sleep, stay indoors, or just generally stay out of the rain unless absolutely necessary.
15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights? Losing my luggage, which thankfully has never happened to me before.
16. How is your relationship with your parents? It could be better, could be worse. I don’t see either of them very often, but I’m pretty sure we’re on good terms.
Will you miss them when they are gone? Of course I will. They’ve never been extremely horrible to me, so I love them.
17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? I used to be more aware, but now I kind of tune things out a lot. If it’s important, then yes, I’m aware.
18. What is the truest thing that you know? That life changes whether you want it to or not, and you either have to deal with it or kill yourself.
19. What did you want to be when you grew up? Lawyer, nurse, veterinarian, or writer.
20. Have you ever been given a second chance? Yes.
21. Are you more of a giver or a taker? Taker, unfortunately. Frank makes it easy to be this way.
22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind? I try to, but that’s not always the way it happens.
23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? The build up to having a baby.
24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you? Summer of 2009.
25. Who have you hugged today? Frank and Kiya.
26. Who has done something today to show they care about you? Frank. We got engaged!
27. Do you have a lot to learn? I’m sure I do.
28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?
A. Be a better person, especially a mommy.
B. Make myself write and sell as many books as possible.
C. Turn invisible.
29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel? What other people do and how it makes me feel.
30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship? Communication, knowing when you’re wrong, when to pick your battles, and at least having things in common.
31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?
A. See my kids grow up.
B. Write a best selling novel.
C. Live happily with Frank.
32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?
A. Killing someone else.
B. Hurting (mentally or physically) one of my children or Frank.
C. Being a vegetable.
33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause? Generally saving humanity before it destroys itself.
34. What does each decade make you think of:
The 19..
20's: Black and white t.v. shows depicting that time.
30's: I don’t know.
40's: World War 2
50's: Poodle skirts.
60's: Hippies.
70's: Disco dancing and afros.
80's: Hair metal.
90's: Saved by the Bell.
2000s: War.
2010's (so far): Obama. Unfortunately.
35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why? 2000s, because that’s when I became more socially aware.
36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song? I don’t think I have one.
37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country? USA. Obama and the government run it.
If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be?
“What the fuck are you thinking?”
38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?
Nickelodeon.
39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why?
I don’t think I’m like a villain, honestly.
40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout?
I tried to be a girl scout, but my mom never had time to take me to the meetings.
41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat?
I would take a boat, even though I have a fear of doing either one.
42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night?
Science.
43. What does your name mean?
It came from the “Ash” tree, I’m assuming.
44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space?
Outer space. The ocean scares the shit out of me.
45. Word association
What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:
Air: Oxygen
Meat: Steak
Different: Strokes
Pink: Singer
Deserve: Worth
White: Collar
Elvis: Presley
Magic: Hogwarts
Heart: Attack
Clash: Band
Pulp: Fiction
46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be?
J.R.R. Tolkein
47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive?
Jennifer Tilly or Katherine Heigl
48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday?
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do?
Pen and paper, food to eat, cell phone to call for help, and something to potty in.
50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved?
I’m not sure of either, since nothing’s really been obvious.
51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...
Fruitgoogle: The google search for types of fruit.
Ambytime: A new dimension of time.
Asscactus: Derogatory term.
52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands?
Nothing, really, unless writing counts as “making” something.
53. What was your favorite toy as a child?
I’m not sure if I had one.
54. How many TV’s are in your house?
5.
55. What is your favorite thing to do outside?
Go swimming.
56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow?
It’s exciting for all of two seconds, then I forget about it.
57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?
Plenty of times. Mostly it just feels like déjà vu until I remember the dream.
58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader?
I went the summer after my 9th grade year, while I was vacationing in Daytona with a friend. I had my palm read, since the tarot reading was $60.
59. What is your idea of paradise?
Somewhere I don’t have any worries, including things like money, weather, people, or sickness.
60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like?
I’m not sure what I believe in.
61. Do you believe in Hell?
I would have to believe in Heaven first, and I’m not sure I do.
62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't?
Probably nothing.
63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done?
I took care of Frank while he was bandaged from bad burns.
64. Are you a patient person?
When I’m not pregnant.
65. What holiday should exist but doesn't?
Winter-een-mas.
66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does?
There are too many to name.
67. What's the best joke you ever heard?
Voodoo dick. I’m not typing it out.
68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been?
Panama City. It was fun because I was with people I cared about at the time.
69. Is your hair natural or dyed?
Dyed.
70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front?
I’m pretty much up front.
71. What is under your bed right now?
A taco chair, duffel bag, and box of random stuff.
72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home?
I would totally live there, but only if my family was with me.
73. If you drive do you frequently speed?
All the time, which is why I have a speeding ticket to pay off.
74. What is the world's best song to dance to?
Anything Lady Gaga.
75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone?
Probably something by Lady Gaga. I haven’t danced with anyone in a while, so I can’t really remember.
76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?
Disney.
77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo?
The reptiles.
78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?
I haven’t had much of a chance to be, but I like to think I would be romantic if possible.
79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?
Probably.
80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it?
Stay at home with Frank and Kiya.
81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick?
The right to take “free speech” to an extreme.
82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole?
Equator.
83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television?
Watching television.
84. What do you think makes someone a hero?
Knowing that they would sacrifice their life for that of someone else.
85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in?
Sailor Moon.
86. Name one thing that turns your stomach:
A lot of things right now, since I’m pregnant.
87. What was the last thing you paid for?
Notebooks and paper.
88. Are you a coupon clipper?
Nope.
89. Get anything good in the mail recently?
A carseat for Kiya and D&D rulebooks.
90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling?
Dancing, but it depends on the type, and if not that then karate.
91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...
Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends?
Doesn’t seem to be by the definition, but for tv’s sake, yes.
92. What insects are you afraid of?
All of the above.
93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say?
“Pink is the new black” or “Silly French”
94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn?
A bright pink skirt and fishnets to match?
95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be?
Burger King French Fries.
96. What are your parents interested in?
My dad is a dork, like me, and my mom … I have no clue.
97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet?
I tried to keep fireflies at one time, but they died in the jar. I forgot to poke holes in the top.
Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal?
I tried to tame a chipmunk, but it was almost eaten by a dog so it was on it’s last leg anyway.
98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans?
Wishes that turn into realistic plans.
99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest?
Late evening.
100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring?
Tent, fire making kit, and something edible.
101. What does happiness/joy feel like physically?
Heart racing, nerve twitching.
102. List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most.
A. Kiya
B. Wren
C. Frank
D. Mom
E. Dad
103. How many movies have you gone to see this month?
None.
104. If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself, what would you wish for?
A. Wren to be healthy when she’s born.
B. Frank to get the job in the army he wants, and to be successful.
C. Kiya and Wren to have a good childhood.
105. In what ways do you relax and de-stress when you are really tense?
Sleep, or get a massage from Frank.
106. How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in the springtime and get out of the car?
Way more than anyone would be willing to pay me.
107. Have you ever killed an animal?
I ran over a squirrel one time.
108. Have you ever lost someone close to you?
My great-grandmother.
109. What do you think of cloning?
That it’s eventually going to be a social norm.
110. Do you read or watch TV more often?
Watch TV, unfortunately.
111. With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety?
Only if the person in charge of our safety knows what they’re doing.
112. What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive?
Shoot him.
113. Have you ever named an individual part of your body?
Nope.
114. Have you ever been on the radio or on TV?
TV, yes.
115. Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes?
I won $5 on a lottery ticket.
116. Have you ever won a contest or competition?
Not sure if I have or not.
117. Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross?
No.
118. Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living?
I know my grandfather on my mom’s side worked on roads for years, and the grandfather on my dad’s side was in the army. As for my great-grandparents, I honestly don’t know. Probably military on my dad’s side, and I never asked my great-grandmother what she or her husband did.
119. Is there anything really interesting in your family history?
One of my great uncles was the coach of a famous baseball team.
120. Is there anyone you trust completely?
Frank.
121. Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye?
Yes.
122. How do you feel about women in politics?
There should be more of them that don’t try to take the “man role”.
123. Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool?
Outdoor pool.
124. What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own?
Greek mythology.
125. Would you consider yourself to be intelligent?
In certain subjects.
126. Would you consider yourself to be wise?
For the most part.
127. Have you ever given or received a lap dance?
Haha, both.
128. Have you ever spoken to a homeless person?
Yes.
129. Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring?
No, I’ve seen the horror movies with things like that in them.
130. If you could add 70 years to your life but only by making some random person die 70 years sooner would you?
No, because that random person could end up being someone I love.
131. Can you finish any of the following lyrics? Nope.
A: Nothing to kill or die for...
B: Late comings with the late comin' stretcher...
C: I could make a film and make you my star...
132. Were you ever with someone while they died?
Technically, yes. My grandfather died in his bedroom right next to mine, while I was awake.
133. Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star?
Rock star.
134. Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote?
Yes.
135. Have you ever sent someone a surprise though the mail?
Not that I can remember.
136. Are you looking forward to any concerts right now?
Not really.
137. Of all animated movies, which is the best one you've ever seen?
Sleeping Beauty.
138. What are the best bands or songs to listen to while driving?
Avenged Sevenfold.
139. What do you think is the most amazing thing that anyone has ever accomplished?
Technology.
140. What could a member of the opposite sex do to impress you?
Be intelligent.
141. About how many emails do you get a day?
Too many.
How many of those emails are junk mail?
Mostly all of them.
How many of them are forwards?
None.
142. What's your favorite thing to do online besides write in your diary and hang out at this site?
Read fmylife.com or itmademyday.com.
143. Do you believe Kurt Cobain (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurt_Cobain) killed himself or was it a conspiracy?
I could care less.
144. Have you ever though about hitchhiking across the country?
Nope, I’m way too scared to do it.
145. Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip?
Frank?
146. Of the following, which word best describes you: accurate, bold, charming, dependable
Dependable.
147. If you are single, at about what age do you think you will be ready to settle down and get married? If you are married, how old were you at the time?
19.
148. Do you often wonder, when you say goodbye to people, if it is the last time you will ever see them?
Sometimes.
149. What movie are you most looking forward to seeing when it comes out?
Valentines Day?
150. What is your quest?
To be a better person.
151. What is louder and more annoying: 200 adults talking or one four-year-old screaming?
Four year old screaming.
152. Do you believe the stories about planes, boats and people mysteriously disappearing into the Bermuda triangle?
153. Who are you the most jealous of?
Not really anyone.
154. What is the happiest way you can start your day?
Seeing Kiya smile at me.
155. Do you ever have moments where you feel like everything is all right in the world?
Not a lot lately, but yes, I have.
156. Who thinks that you are offensive?
Probably no one at this point, but a lot of people from my past thought I was.
157. If you had to teach a class in something, what would you be able to teach people?
Music.
158. Have you ever had a spiritual experience (an experience that cannot be explained by science)?
Yes, but I’d rather not explain it.
159. Do you believe that this experience was truly mystical or do you think there is some scientific explanation for it, only you don't know what it is?
Scientific explanation.
160. Do you get offended easily?
Not really.
161. Would you still love and stay with your significant other if he or she had to have a breast or testicle removed?
Yes.
162. Do you believe in fate or free will?
Free will.
163. Do you believe that only boring people get bored?
No. Everyone gets bored.
164. Can life change or are we all stuck in vain?
I’d like to think that life can change, but humanity isn’t making very big advances in wanting to.
165. What changes are you afraid of?
Everything.
166. Are you a day person or nocturnal?
Nocturnal, but it doesn’t do well to stay awake all night when you have kids.
167. What one CD could you listen to for an entire week (no mixed CD’s, it must be an album)?
Waking the Fallen by Avenged Sevenfold.
168. Which is worse, working in retail, food service, or an office?
I’ve had one of each, and it’s definitely food service.
169. What's the coolest job you ever had?
Working as an operator at AT&T.
170. What is one central idea that your thoughts seem to come back to?
Money.
171. Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress?
For all of two seconds.
172. If you had the power to control one person and make this person do anything you wanted for a whole day, who would you pick and what would they do?
I’d feel too bad to write it down here.
173. What star sign are you and what is your sign like?
Aquarius? And I have no idea what it’s like.
174. Did the Blair Witch Project scare you?
Only the part where the sides of the tent started moving.
175. Are you in constant fear of death?
Not really my own, but the ones I love, maybe.
176. Does fear of death keep you from building a life?
Nope.
177. Do you like all your movies to be in wide-screen?
No, full screen until I have a plasma screen tv.
178. Are you a fan of any comic books?
I would be if I had any of them.
179. At what age did you attend your first funeral?
8.
180. What do you smell like (lotion, cologne, sweat)?
B.O.
181. What are your greatest sources for wisdom?
Wikipedia.org
182. When you were little, where did your parents tell you babies come from?
They didn’t really sugar coat baby making for me, but my cousin used to tell me that I was found on the river, and that’s where all babies came from.
183. What is your favorite band?
Avenged Sevenfold.
184. What's the best cheesy 80's song?
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun.
185. What's the best kind of movie to see on a date?
Comedy.
186. Do you like to sit in the front, middle or back of the Movie Theater?
Back.
187. Have you ever been inside an abandoned building?
An abandoned, supposedly haunted, hospital.
188. Under what circumstances would you agree to work for free?
It’d have to be for charity.
189. Candles or strobe lights?
Candles. I got sick of the one strobe light I was around a lot.
190. Do you think the Lord of the Rings movies are true to the books or did Hollywood change the story too much?
They’re truer than a lot of books turned movie.
191. When you see a stranger on the street does your first reaction lean towards thinking of this person as a potential friend or as a potential threat?
Potential threat, because I have a nasty habit of judging.
192. Is it natural for human beings to fear and distrust each other, or is it cultural?
Cultural.
193. What do you really want to buy?
A car.
194. You have to choose. Would you be happier marrying someone rich for their money or living in the streets and subway tunnels with someone you love?
Living on the streets.
195. If someone wanted to understand you what book could they read that would help?
I don’t think there is one that goes along with me that well.
196. Do you think it’s odd that Americans have freedom of religion and yet call themselves 'one nation under god'?
Yes. It annoys me, actually.
197. In what sense are you a minority?
I’m a girl that knows about cars.
198. Are you anti social?
I can be.
199. Do you photograph well?
Not at all.
200. Do you think that human beings would survivor through a nuclear winter?
No. We’re too dependent on electricity and such that we would die without it, especially in that sort of situation.
201. Put these creatures in order from what you would least like to be reincarnated as (1), to what you would most like to be reincarnated as (10) assuming reincarnation ended up existing AND you were given a choice.
caterpillar, house dog, wild dog, vulture, male human, female human, oak tree, rock, manta ray, dolphin
Rock, oak tree, caterpillar, manta ray, vulture, house dog, wild dog, male human, dolphin, female human.
202. What do you feel unworthy of?
Frank.
203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person?
Done something for humanity, because being a nice person is asking A LOT.
204. Which do you value more: science or intuition?
Intuition.
205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first?
My significant other… if the other person is really my best friend, they’ll understand.
206. Does the universe revolve around human beings?
No. It was around before we were.
207. If you are no longer a virgin, do you wish you still were?
Nope.
208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now?
I don’t have one.
209. What is your favorite song from the 90's?
Bush- Come Down
210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be?
A.
211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.?
All of the above.
212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend?
Their conversation skills and likes/dislikes.
213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun?
No, because it annoys me when people do that to me.
214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth?
Never even heard of it.
215. What is your favorite line from a movie?
“So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.” Noah from “The Notebook”
216. What's your favorite video game?
Zelda, Majora’s Mask.
217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours?
Yes. Who hasn’t?
218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you?
Anything ghetto.
219. You allow strangers to read your diary, but would you let your parents read it?
Sure. I’ve come clean about everything I did when I was younger.
220. Hot steamy bubble bath or quick in and out shower?
Quick in and out shower.
221. Are you allergic to anything?
Not that I’ve come across.
222. What is your favorite Terminator movie?
I hate Terminator.
223. What is your favorite fast food?
Cheeseburger from Burger King.
224. What would someone have to do to get you to never speak to him or her again?
Try to date the person I’m in love with, even if we’re not together.
225. Would (or have) you ever whip someone or be whipped by someone in bed?
I’ve only whipped people out of fun, never to be kinky in bed.
226. Have you ever said 'I hate everyone' and really meant it literally?
Yes, but I was drunk.
227. Why do some people want to get more money than they could ever spend?
Because they want the illusion of being rich and better than others.
228. Have you ever won a carnival fish?
Yes.
229. Did it live more than a week?
Nope.
230. What's the best sounding accent a person can have?
Scottish.
231. What's the most boring thing you've ever read?
There are a lot of things that I’ve read that bored me, nothing in particular was the worst, though.
232. Do you prefer buttons or touch screens?
Buttons.
233. Do you think there is a lot of similarity between the Harry Potter books and the Lord of the Rings series?
Not really.
234. Would you consider yourself to be naive?
I’d like to think that I’m not.
235. Which of your friends is most likely to go to jail?
I have no clue.
236. What is the smallest amount of money that could be in a public toilet that would make you reach in and grab it?
$20, but it really depends on if the toilet is just water, or if it hasn’t been flushed.
237. Would you ever wear real fur?
No.
238. Arachnophobia or Eight Legged Freaks?
Eight Legged Freaks.
239. What are your feelings about police officers?
I want to be one, but I think a lot of them waste their time with small time stuff rather than looking for actual crimes.
240. What is your favorite line from a song?
“Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if there is no eternal life?”
241. Is fifty dollars a lot of money?
Right now, yes.
242. Do you like the band Front 242 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Front_242)?
No.
243. Would you rather have fame, money, or self-satisfaction?
Money.
244. What's your middle name?
Estelle.
245. What is the absolute limit, the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?
I’m not sure. I would need a list of things considered “crazy” to choose from.
246. Are you good, evil or neutral?
Unaligned.
247. Should ebonics (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ebonics) be considered a language?
No, it definitely shouldn’t.
248. What color is your bedroom?
Off white.
What color would you like it to be?
Green and black.
249. When are you planning to move to a new home?
As soon as Frank and I can afford it.
250. If you added up the cost of everything in the room with you, approximately what would it come out to be?
A couple hundred dollars, probably.
1. Who are you? Ashley.
2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? A.) I’m not as mean as I seem to be, B.) I’m not as interesting as I seem at first, and C.) I have a daughter, one on the way, and am not interested in your advice.
3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing? Trying to write, taking care of Kiya, and being with Frank.
4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time). I liked all of my Lit, history, and computer classes. Everything else I hated.
5. What is your biggest goal for this year? Become a better person.
6. Where do you want to be in 5 years? Living with Frank, with my/our kids, happy, and successful in something.
7. What stage of life are you in right now? A constant transition from immaturity and being an adult.
8. Are you more child-like or childish? Childish.
9. What is the last thing you said out loud? “Okay.”
10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? I’m not sure one could describe everything as well as I’d like.
11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes? No, but I’m not opposed to doing so.
12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same? It has its ups and downs, but things are almost always looking up when I think positively.
13. Does time really heal all wounds? I wouldn’t say it heals them, it just gives you time to accept what’s happened and move on.
14. How do you handle a rainy day? Sleep, stay indoors, or just generally stay out of the rain unless absolutely necessary.
15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights? Losing my luggage, which thankfully has never happened to me before.
16. How is your relationship with your parents? It could be better, could be worse. I don’t see either of them very often, but I’m pretty sure we’re on good terms.
Will you miss them when they are gone? Of course I will. They’ve never been extremely horrible to me, so I love them.
17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? I used to be more aware, but now I kind of tune things out a lot. If it’s important, then yes, I’m aware.
18. What is the truest thing that you know? That life changes whether you want it to or not, and you either have to deal with it or kill yourself.
19. What did you want to be when you grew up? Lawyer, nurse, veterinarian, or writer.
20. Have you ever been given a second chance? Yes.
21. Are you more of a giver or a taker? Taker, unfortunately. Frank makes it easy to be this way.
22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart/mind? I try to, but that’s not always the way it happens.
23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? The build up to having a baby.
24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you? Summer of 2009.
25. Who have you hugged today? Frank and Kiya.
26. Who has done something today to show they care about you? Frank. We got engaged!
27. Do you have a lot to learn? I’m sure I do.
28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?
A. Be a better person, especially a mommy.
B. Make myself write and sell as many books as possible.
C. Turn invisible.
29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel? What other people do and how it makes me feel.
30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship? Communication, knowing when you’re wrong, when to pick your battles, and at least having things in common.
31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?
A. See my kids grow up.
B. Write a best selling novel.
C. Live happily with Frank.
32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?
A. Killing someone else.
B. Hurting (mentally or physically) one of my children or Frank.
C. Being a vegetable.
33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause? Generally saving humanity before it destroys itself.
34. What does each decade make you think of:
The 19..
20's: Black and white t.v. shows depicting that time.
30's: I don’t know.
40's: World War 2
50's: Poodle skirts.
60's: Hippies.
70's: Disco dancing and afros.
80's: Hair metal.
90's: Saved by the Bell.
2000s: War.
2010's (so far): Obama. Unfortunately.
35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why? 2000s, because that’s when I became more socially aware.
36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song? I don’t think I have one.
37. What country do you live in and who is the leader of that country? USA. Obama and the government run it.
If you could say any sentence to the current leader of your country what would it be?
“What the fuck are you thinking?”
38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?
Nickelodeon.
39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why?
I don’t think I’m like a villain, honestly.
40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout?
I tried to be a girl scout, but my mom never had time to take me to the meetings.
41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat?
I would take a boat, even though I have a fear of doing either one.
42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night?
Science.
43. What does your name mean?
It came from the “Ash” tree, I’m assuming.
44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space?
Outer space. The ocean scares the shit out of me.
45. Word association
What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:
Air: Oxygen
Meat: Steak
Different: Strokes
Pink: Singer
Deserve: Worth
White: Collar
Elvis: Presley
Magic: Hogwarts
Heart: Attack
Clash: Band
Pulp: Fiction
46. If you could meet any person in the world who is dead who would you want it to be?
J.R.R. Tolkein
47. What if you could meet anyone who is alive?
Jennifer Tilly or Katherine Heigl
48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday?
Mr. and Mrs. Smith
49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do?
Pen and paper, food to eat, cell phone to call for help, and something to potty in.
50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved?
I’m not sure of either, since nothing’s really been obvious.
51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...
Fruitgoogle: The google search for types of fruit.
Ambytime: A new dimension of time.
Asscactus: Derogatory term.
52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands?
Nothing, really, unless writing counts as “making” something.
53. What was your favorite toy as a child?
I’m not sure if I had one.
54. How many TV’s are in your house?
5.
55. What is your favorite thing to do outside?
Go swimming.
56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow?
It’s exciting for all of two seconds, then I forget about it.
57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?
Plenty of times. Mostly it just feels like déjà vu until I remember the dream.
58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader?
I went the summer after my 9th grade year, while I was vacationing in Daytona with a friend. I had my palm read, since the tarot reading was $60.
59. What is your idea of paradise?
Somewhere I don’t have any worries, including things like money, weather, people, or sickness.
60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like?
I’m not sure what I believe in.
61. Do you believe in Hell?
I would have to believe in Heaven first, and I’m not sure I do.
62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't?
Probably nothing.
63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done?
I took care of Frank while he was bandaged from bad burns.
64. Are you a patient person?
When I’m not pregnant.
65. What holiday should exist but doesn't?
Winter-een-mas.
66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does?
There are too many to name.
67. What's the best joke you ever heard?
Voodoo dick. I’m not typing it out.
68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been?
Panama City. It was fun because I was with people I cared about at the time.
69. Is your hair natural or dyed?
Dyed.
70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front?
I’m pretty much up front.
71. What is under your bed right now?
A taco chair, duffel bag, and box of random stuff.
72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home?
I would totally live there, but only if my family was with me.
73. If you drive do you frequently speed?
All the time, which is why I have a speeding ticket to pay off.
74. What is the world's best song to dance to?
Anything Lady Gaga.
75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone?
Probably something by Lady Gaga. I haven’t danced with anyone in a while, so I can’t really remember.
76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?
Disney.
77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo?
The reptiles.
78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?
I haven’t had much of a chance to be, but I like to think I would be romantic if possible.
79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?
Probably.
80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it?
Stay at home with Frank and Kiya.
81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick?
The right to take “free speech” to an extreme.
82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole?
Equator.
83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television?
Watching television.
84. What do you think makes someone a hero?
Knowing that they would sacrifice their life for that of someone else.
85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in?
Sailor Moon.
86. Name one thing that turns your stomach:
A lot of things right now, since I’m pregnant.
87. What was the last thing you paid for?
Notebooks and paper.
88. Are you a coupon clipper?
Nope.
89. Get anything good in the mail recently?
A carseat for Kiya and D&D rulebooks.
90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling?
Dancing, but it depends on the type, and if not that then karate.
91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...
Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends?
Doesn’t seem to be by the definition, but for tv’s sake, yes.
92. What insects are you afraid of?
All of the above.
93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say?
“Pink is the new black” or “Silly French”
94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn?
A bright pink skirt and fishnets to match?
95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be?
Burger King French Fries.
96. What are your parents interested in?
My dad is a dork, like me, and my mom … I have no clue.
97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet?
I tried to keep fireflies at one time, but they died in the jar. I forgot to poke holes in the top.
Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal?
I tried to tame a chipmunk, but it was almost eaten by a dog so it was on it’s last leg anyway.
98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans?
Wishes that turn into realistic plans.
99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest?
Late evening.
100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring?
Tent, fire making kit, and something edible.
101. What does happiness/joy feel like physically?
Heart racing, nerve twitching.
102. List five people you love starting with the one you love the absolute most.
A. Kiya
B. Wren
C. Frank
D. Mom
E. Dad
103. How many movies have you gone to see this month?
None.
104. If you could have 3 wishes...but none of them could be for yourself, what would you wish for?
A. Wren to be healthy when she’s born.
B. Frank to get the job in the army he wants, and to be successful.
C. Kiya and Wren to have a good childhood.
105. In what ways do you relax and de-stress when you are really tense?
Sleep, or get a massage from Frank.
106. How much money would it take to get you to drive to school naked in the springtime and get out of the car?
Way more than anyone would be willing to pay me.
107. Have you ever killed an animal?
I ran over a squirrel one time.
108. Have you ever lost someone close to you?
My great-grandmother.
109. What do you think of cloning?
That it’s eventually going to be a social norm.
110. Do you read or watch TV more often?
Watch TV, unfortunately.
111. With all this talk of terrorism going around are you willing to sacrifice rights and freedoms for increased safety?
Only if the person in charge of our safety knows what they’re doing.
112. What is the punishment you would come up with for Osama Bin Laden if you caught him alive?
Shoot him.
113. Have you ever named an individual part of your body?
Nope.
114. Have you ever been on the radio or on TV?
TV, yes.
115. Have you ever won a lottery, or sweepstakes?
I won $5 on a lottery ticket.
116. Have you ever won a contest or competition?
Not sure if I have or not.
117. Do you like to watch The Joy of Painting show with Bob Ross?
No.
118. Do you know what your grandparents and your great grand parents did for a living?
I know my grandfather on my mom’s side worked on roads for years, and the grandfather on my dad’s side was in the army. As for my great-grandparents, I honestly don’t know. Probably military on my dad’s side, and I never asked my great-grandmother what she or her husband did.
119. Is there anything really interesting in your family history?
One of my great uncles was the coach of a famous baseball team.
120. Is there anyone you trust completely?
Frank.
121. Have you ever lost someone without having the chance to say goodbye?
Yes.
122. How do you feel about women in politics?
There should be more of them that don’t try to take the “man role”.
123. Would you rather have an indoor Jacuzzi or an outdoor pool?
Outdoor pool.
124. What things are you interested in that you study or read about on your own?
Greek mythology.
125. Would you consider yourself to be intelligent?
In certain subjects.
126. Would you consider yourself to be wise?
For the most part.
127. Have you ever given or received a lap dance?
Haha, both.
128. Have you ever spoken to a homeless person?
Yes.
129. Would you ever creep into the subway tunnels to go exploring?
No, I’ve seen the horror movies with things like that in them.
130. If you could add 70 years to your life but only by making some random person die 70 years sooner would you?
No, because that random person could end up being someone I love.
131. Can you finish any of the following lyrics? Nope.
A: Nothing to kill or die for...
B: Late comings with the late comin' stretcher...
C: I could make a film and make you my star...
132. Were you ever with someone while they died?
Technically, yes. My grandfather died in his bedroom right next to mine, while I was awake.
133. Would you rather be a world political leader or a rock star?
Rock star.
134. Have you ever given someone a love letter that you wrote?
Yes.
135. Have you ever sent someone a surprise though the mail?
Not that I can remember.
136. Are you looking forward to any concerts right now?
Not really.
137. Of all animated movies, which is the best one you've ever seen?
Sleeping Beauty.
138. What are the best bands or songs to listen to while driving?
Avenged Sevenfold.
139. What do you think is the most amazing thing that anyone has ever accomplished?
Technology.
140. What could a member of the opposite sex do to impress you?
Be intelligent.
141. About how many emails do you get a day?
Too many.
How many of those emails are junk mail?
Mostly all of them.
How many of them are forwards?
None.
142. What's your favorite thing to do online besides write in your diary and hang out at this site?
Read fmylife.com or itmademyday.com.
143. Do you believe Kurt Cobain (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kurt_Cobain) killed himself or was it a conspiracy?
I could care less.
144. Have you ever though about hitchhiking across the country?
Nope, I’m way too scared to do it.
145. Who would you bring with you on this kind of a road trip?
Frank?
146. Of the following, which word best describes you: accurate, bold, charming, dependable
Dependable.
147. If you are single, at about what age do you think you will be ready to settle down and get married? If you are married, how old were you at the time?
19.
148. Do you often wonder, when you say goodbye to people, if it is the last time you will ever see them?
Sometimes.
149. What movie are you most looking forward to seeing when it comes out?
Valentines Day?
150. What is your quest?
To be a better person.
151. What is louder and more annoying: 200 adults talking or one four-year-old screaming?
Four year old screaming.
152. Do you believe the stories about planes, boats and people mysteriously disappearing into the Bermuda triangle?
153. Who are you the most jealous of?
Not really anyone.
154. What is the happiest way you can start your day?
Seeing Kiya smile at me.
155. Do you ever have moments where you feel like everything is all right in the world?
Not a lot lately, but yes, I have.
156. Who thinks that you are offensive?
Probably no one at this point, but a lot of people from my past thought I was.
157. If you had to teach a class in something, what would you be able to teach people?
Music.
158. Have you ever had a spiritual experience (an experience that cannot be explained by science)?
Yes, but I’d rather not explain it.
159. Do you believe that this experience was truly mystical or do you think there is some scientific explanation for it, only you don't know what it is?
Scientific explanation.
160. Do you get offended easily?
Not really.
161. Would you still love and stay with your significant other if he or she had to have a breast or testicle removed?
Yes.
162. Do you believe in fate or free will?
Free will.
163. Do you believe that only boring people get bored?
No. Everyone gets bored.
164. Can life change or are we all stuck in vain?
I’d like to think that life can change, but humanity isn’t making very big advances in wanting to.
165. What changes are you afraid of?
Everything.
166. Are you a day person or nocturnal?
Nocturnal, but it doesn’t do well to stay awake all night when you have kids.
167. What one CD could you listen to for an entire week (no mixed CD’s, it must be an album)?
Waking the Fallen by Avenged Sevenfold.
168. Which is worse, working in retail, food service, or an office?
I’ve had one of each, and it’s definitely food service.
169. What's the coolest job you ever had?
Working as an operator at AT&T.
170. What is one central idea that your thoughts seem to come back to?
Money.
171. Have you ever wanted to be an actor/tress?
For all of two seconds.
172. If you had the power to control one person and make this person do anything you wanted for a whole day, who would you pick and what would they do?
I’d feel too bad to write it down here.
173. What star sign are you and what is your sign like?
Aquarius? And I have no idea what it’s like.
174. Did the Blair Witch Project scare you?
Only the part where the sides of the tent started moving.
175. Are you in constant fear of death?
Not really my own, but the ones I love, maybe.
176. Does fear of death keep you from building a life?
Nope.
177. Do you like all your movies to be in wide-screen?
No, full screen until I have a plasma screen tv.
178. Are you a fan of any comic books?
I would be if I had any of them.
179. At what age did you attend your first funeral?
8.
180. What do you smell like (lotion, cologne, sweat)?
B.O.
181. What are your greatest sources for wisdom?
Wikipedia.org
182. When you were little, where did your parents tell you babies come from?
They didn’t really sugar coat baby making for me, but my cousin used to tell me that I was found on the river, and that’s where all babies came from.
183. What is your favorite band?
Avenged Sevenfold.
184. What's the best cheesy 80's song?
Girls Just Wanna Have Fun.
185. What's the best kind of movie to see on a date?
Comedy.
186. Do you like to sit in the front, middle or back of the Movie Theater?
Back.
187. Have you ever been inside an abandoned building?
An abandoned, supposedly haunted, hospital.
188. Under what circumstances would you agree to work for free?
It’d have to be for charity.
189. Candles or strobe lights?
Candles. I got sick of the one strobe light I was around a lot.
190. Do you think the Lord of the Rings movies are true to the books or did Hollywood change the story too much?
They’re truer than a lot of books turned movie.
191. When you see a stranger on the street does your first reaction lean towards thinking of this person as a potential friend or as a potential threat?
Potential threat, because I have a nasty habit of judging.
192. Is it natural for human beings to fear and distrust each other, or is it cultural?
Cultural.
193. What do you really want to buy?
A car.
194. You have to choose. Would you be happier marrying someone rich for their money or living in the streets and subway tunnels with someone you love?
Living on the streets.
195. If someone wanted to understand you what book could they read that would help?
I don’t think there is one that goes along with me that well.
196. Do you think it’s odd that Americans have freedom of religion and yet call themselves 'one nation under god'?
Yes. It annoys me, actually.
197. In what sense are you a minority?
I’m a girl that knows about cars.
198. Are you anti social?
I can be.
199. Do you photograph well?
Not at all.
200. Do you think that human beings would survivor through a nuclear winter?
No. We’re too dependent on electricity and such that we would die without it, especially in that sort of situation.
201. Put these creatures in order from what you would least like to be reincarnated as (1), to what you would most like to be reincarnated as (10) assuming reincarnation ended up existing AND you were given a choice.
caterpillar, house dog, wild dog, vulture, male human, female human, oak tree, rock, manta ray, dolphin
Rock, oak tree, caterpillar, manta ray, vulture, house dog, wild dog, male human, dolphin, female human.
202. What do you feel unworthy of?
Frank.
203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person?
Done something for humanity, because being a nice person is asking A LOT.
204. Which do you value more: science or intuition?
Intuition.
205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first?
My significant other… if the other person is really my best friend, they’ll understand.
206. Does the universe revolve around human beings?
No. It was around before we were.
207. If you are no longer a virgin, do you wish you still were?
Nope.
208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now?
I don’t have one.
209. What is your favorite song from the 90's?
Bush- Come Down
210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be?
A.
211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.?
All of the above.
212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend?
Their conversation skills and likes/dislikes.
213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun?
No, because it annoys me when people do that to me.
214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth?
Never even heard of it.
215. What is your favorite line from a movie?
“So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day.” Noah from “The Notebook”
216. What's your favorite video game?
Zelda, Majora’s Mask.
217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours?
Yes. Who hasn’t?
218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you?
Anything ghetto.
219. You allow strangers to read your diary, but would you let your parents read it?
Sure. I’ve come clean about everything I did when I was younger.
220. Hot steamy bubble bath or quick in and out shower?
Quick in and out shower.
221. Are you allergic to anything?
Not that I’ve come across.
222. What is your favorite Terminator movie?
I hate Terminator.
223. What is your favorite fast food?
Cheeseburger from Burger King.
224. What would someone have to do to get you to never speak to him or her again?
Try to date the person I’m in love with, even if we’re not together.
225. Would (or have) you ever whip someone or be whipped by someone in bed?
I’ve only whipped people out of fun, never to be kinky in bed.
226. Have you ever said 'I hate everyone' and really meant it literally?
Yes, but I was drunk.
227. Why do some people want to get more money than they could ever spend?
Because they want the illusion of being rich and better than others.
228. Have you ever won a carnival fish?
Yes.
229. Did it live more than a week?
Nope.
230. What's the best sounding accent a person can have?
Scottish.
231. What's the most boring thing you've ever read?
There are a lot of things that I’ve read that bored me, nothing in particular was the worst, though.
232. Do you prefer buttons or touch screens?
Buttons.
233. Do you think there is a lot of similarity between the Harry Potter books and the Lord of the Rings series?
Not really.
234. Would you consider yourself to be naive?
I’d like to think that I’m not.
235. Which of your friends is most likely to go to jail?
I have no clue.
236. What is the smallest amount of money that could be in a public toilet that would make you reach in and grab it?
$20, but it really depends on if the toilet is just water, or if it hasn’t been flushed.
237. Would you ever wear real fur?
No.
238. Arachnophobia or Eight Legged Freaks?
Eight Legged Freaks.
239. What are your feelings about police officers?
I want to be one, but I think a lot of them waste their time with small time stuff rather than looking for actual crimes.
240. What is your favorite line from a song?
“Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if there is no eternal life?”
241. Is fifty dollars a lot of money?
Right now, yes.
242. Do you like the band Front 242 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Front_242)?
No.
243. Would you rather have fame, money, or self-satisfaction?
Money.
244. What's your middle name?
Estelle.
245. What is the absolute limit, the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?
I’m not sure. I would need a list of things considered “crazy” to choose from.
246. Are you good, evil or neutral?
Unaligned.
247. Should ebonics (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ebonics) be considered a language?
No, it definitely shouldn’t.
248. What color is your bedroom?
Off white.
What color would you like it to be?
Green and black.
249. When are you planning to move to a new home?
As soon as Frank and I can afford it.
250. If you added up the cost of everything in the room with you, approximately what would it come out to be?
A couple hundred dollars, probably.