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& eye remember him fucking me,
& eye remember liking it.
eye didn't know any better...
& eye remember the smell, & the pain, & the shame...
& eye remember being afraid & thinking everyday
Every single day... that it was my fault...
Oh, but what happened to that little girl?
Who used to dream of one day ruling the world?
Who used to draw pretty pictures in my room---beneath the moon
Destroying to create,
Softly praying to God.
What do I do now?
What do I do now?
As eye secretely masturbate...
But then eye'd hear his hooves coming down the floor
With a Bible in his hand...
Softly opening my door and he'd say...
DAUGHTER! The day of your attonement is due!
Well there's 3 million sinners out there...
& that includes you!
No daddy, don't... no daddy, don't...
LEAVE ME ALONE!
LEAVE ME ALONE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE!
NO, I DON'T WANT TO BE FREE!
SO TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
PLEASE TAKE YOUR DICK OUT OF ME!
[i'm in the mouth of madness
with a tongue of poetry
i ate the spine of Atlas
now the world is crushing me]
"AS LONG AS YOU'RE UNDER MY ROOF,
YOU WILL RESPECT ME!
& it's ok to hate yourself,
just lay still, don't cry for help"
I'm sick, but I need my disease.
no miracle is coming...
it's just a hole.
nothing's wrong with you
just maintain control.
obsessed about//money & power
obsessed about//sexual encounters
obsessed about//passion & pain
possessed like martyr//getting high off the flames
obsessed about//dominion & death
obsessed about//infecting the nest
obsessed about//seeking revenge
for being trapped//in this body of wounds & regret
& there's a lady in a stable
her daddy reads her fables
about the moon & his bride
he's in her room every night
& feeds upon a table
of silken robes
an alter of stone
but the child is unable
to run, run, run
& flee his tower of babel
so blood, blood, blood
slithers down her ankles...
i'm learning to like the pain
a bullet in the head
a knife wound in the
eye cried, as my innocence died.
Like a fetus on the floor,
Like an addict wanting more,
Like a sex slave, crying & sore...
I want to smell the violence,
I need to see you bleed,
Take me inside your soul & make it weep for me,
...I NEED TO BELIEVE.
i became what i hate.
obey, obey, betray, betray
you are not unique.
you do not need to think.
i'm a stain on the cloth!
i'm just an after-thought!
but i, would die, for this...
but through the veins of decay, i'll remain to betray
to live like Caesar. to die like Jesus.
to build my own religion, no gods, no laws
to celebrate pain, forsaken & ashamed
to watch them all, crawl beneath us...
My 1st act of treason was picking up a pen
My 1st act of love was finding myself again
The hardest thing to do was standing up to you
Now I'm off my knees now you're begging me "please"
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
FUCK HER
SLAY THEM