We're both sitting here: freezing cold. Wrapped in hoodies. I have a blanket from the army-surplus store wrapped around me. The kind they're using in Iraq right now. I'm still shivering. I don't really think it's the cold, but I can't be sure. I mean... it is 3 a.m. and I am sitting on the banks of a river. Dirt-clods float by in the water, and I ( Read more... )

I'd like some feedback on it, if you could :/

( Oh boy. )

1. Open your Winamp/itunes
2. Put the shuffle mode on
3. Find a picture of the first 15 artists. If the same artist comes again, skip
4. Why you should do this? So that other people would know what you're listening and how the bands look like
5. GUESS.

( Here are the bands. )

Sorry for not updating lately. I've gotten to a point that I don't really want to talk to anyone that much, much less about how I feel. Eventually I'll update more.

I'm sick of everything always being my fault and everyone calling me a drama queen and I'm fucking sick of FUCKING EVERYTHING UP.

I know it's been forever :/ Sorry. I'll try and update more, but I've had a ton of shit going on.

I'm gonna do a Winamp Meme now and post a real update later. Sorry, haha.

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I'm having problems, so I might not be online much lately. My internet company is switching servers, my computer was hit by a storm, and my mom kicked me out of the house yesterday. I'll try and keep up though!

And then, a couple hours later, I started coming down. I don't drink, so I didn't have any alcohol in my system to take the edge off what was happening. But suddenly, everthing turned ugly, grotesque. Spooky holograms all over the walls, like acid flashbacks without the color or wonder or other redeeming features. I felt a panic, as if there were ( Read more... )

At this point, I'm so depressed and bored and jaded with life, my essay about nuclear families vs. everything else doesn't even register as important.

Fuck nuclear families, dads always suck. Don't argue, I'm fucking right because I said so. That's my justification. Not quotes from someone I've never heard of but accidentally Googled. Not because ( Read more... )

I had dreams all last night that I was being raped ( Read more... )