P.H. - [017]
This is sort of strange. I don't really know what I should be doing.
While I was happy to go back to Nibelheim, I knew I needed to come back here for those two, three, four..however many there are.
Haven't gotten to talk to Aerith.
Cid is still here, so I should talk with him.
Vincent is..still gone, so even though I left, it's not just a nightmare at all.
Zack is here, and I wonder if I should be talking with him.
Hojo has been acting strange as of late. Should I confront him?
Cloud seemed worried about me when I left. I wonder if I should be talking with him too..and tell him the other stuff too.
And there are the Turks, although Reno's busy with that chicky boo, Elena is just..Elena (although she did scold me for taking so long..), and Rude has gone..elsewhere (but I'd like to talk to him too..), and Tseng is just..MIA.
And then there's Rufus.
I've come to the fork in the path where I must choose which road I will take.
This is the final point: Rufus Shinra versus Cloud Strife.
Rufus
• Carrying the twins
• Supposedly engaged (still; I've recently decided to wear my ring again)
• More important things here than myself
• Our children have become the most important to me as of this moment; I want exactly what is best for them
Cloud
• My very best friend and the boy I loved from the very beginning
• Even though he loves Aerith, I might have thought that he loved me as well
• The night that we met, the things we both said..can I live up to it all?
• He doesn't know about the twins..and I don't know if I can tell him
I'm far too confused. I don't really know what to do. I wish I could talk to Aerith, but I know she has feelings for Cloud too.
Perhaps I should just let him go forever? Would he be happier that way? I don't think he could look at me..after what I've done.
But..Zack and Aerith..they finally found each other again..shouldn't they be happy together?
If I spoke to Hojo..I'm not sure what he would say.
I sort of wish Vincent was around too. I'm sure he could help.
..I bet even Sephiroth could help (not that I'd really want his help).
What to do.
Which path to take.
I wish I could handle this so much more gracefully.
..A couple more months, right? I'm not showing too terribly much.
I think Instructor Lulu mentioned that too..while she was still here.
I bet talking to her would have been a big help too...