things fall apart

there is no more i can do

It hurts sometimes to think about how far away this is from what we'd hoped for.
The way things were supposed to stay.
And though I learned a lesson and I took it with grace,
I wish I could stop the cold hand of reality from hitting me in the face.
But there is no sparkling clean solution.
And shit isn't just gonna get resolved in a half an ( Read more... )

worst night ever 

one night to be confused. one night to speed up truth ( Read more... )

It's just you and me, little one.

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How cold can a heart become before it crumbles,
Or decides to stay numb. 
I know what it's like to feel cold,
And i dont want to die alone.
Because i cant stand feeling nothing.
I cant stand feeling old.
I cant stand standing for nothing.
When standing up is all i know.
So why waste another day.

 I take things for granted.
thats not even the worst part

The last few weeks I have been thinking about death.
At 10:48 am I thought I was dying.
I felt the warm blood coming out and the pressure rising in my chest.
A bullet was lodged inside of my lungs.
I saw the glass shattered on the floor.
As I lost control of the wheel time went my so slow and I made my peace with God.
Everything was getting warm and ( Read more... )

I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' buddah head
The stress is buildin' up, I can't,
I can't believe suicide's on my fuckin' mind
I want to leave, I swear to God I feel like death is fuckin' callin' me
Naw you wouldn't understand.