man..another fucking migrane again..i think i'm gonna go try and lay down..maybe it will go away..::sigh::..with my luck it won't.

<3 as always..

yes..finally in december i will have a week to myself..in chicago..with my aunt..without my rents taunting me..away from this fucking house full of walls i see of so much i just want to shoot myself..and of this fighting we call a "family"...finally..i will have alone time..and be able think what i want..probably do what i want as well..but for now ( Read more... )

holy fuck i'm so damn bored...everyone is doing something except for me..i feel like shit..i have a headache..and i can't talk to anyone i want to. i hate my life lately..ugh...well whatever..i'm gonna go wait until someone calls me or find someone to call..byby.

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Eyes betray the soul and bear it's thinking ( Read more... )

-sigh-..today is going to be a boring day..i know it.you know how it wouldn't be boring? is if i could see nicole..yes..i really miss her..i've been caught up in my thoughts alot lately..and realizing how much i care for her..i told my aunt about it..and she told me to be happy..well..you know what..i want what i can't have..and what i can't have ( Read more... )

wow... -raises eyebrow- i totally forgot to update about tuesday ( Read more... )

so i just got off the phone with brittany..what a cool kid..we were talking about so much stuff..heartbreaks..our friends that are gone now..everything..but i still feel like shit..i don't know what it is..i'm gonna go find out what is wrong..eh.

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...i feel sick...i don't know what is wrong...eh.

..my sister ran away once again a couple days ago..but she came back sooner than the last time..::sigh::..i wish that my family was actually normal, but we're not. anyways..on another topic..i've been thinking about nicole alot lately..i really miss her..i always do as a matter of fact..she is..perfect. everything about her..she never gets old..i'm ( Read more... )

so i talked to nicole today..i miss her so..ehh..her mother is so anal retentive on the friends she can have..it's very annoying..especially when i am one of them..and it kills me..i mean..she means alot to me..i would give anything just to conversate with her every day just for fucking 10 minutes to see how her day turned out and to let her know ( Read more... )