It's hard to get by sometimes...
I just read a bunch of livejournal entries about Nick Jennings. Such a sad sad tragedy. I didn't know him, but I knew who his mom was. It doesn't matter if I knew him or not, just by reading the entries I saw how much he was loved. I saw the pain and suffering that his family and friends were feeling, and I couldn't help but cry. Sixteen years old...
It made me think of my cousin who died this past summer. She was 18. One mistake...such as not buckling your seatbelt or not controlling your anger before you step out of the car can change ones life. I didn't go to Nick's funeral or anything like that, but judging by what I read it was a tough one. Funerals/wakes for teenagers just shouldn't have to exist. It's so awful and so sad. I remember going to my cousin's wake and seeing all of her friends. The pain they felt was indescribable.
I can't imagine being put in that situation of losing one of my friends, or just someone I pass in the halls at school. So be safe, please...for me, for you friends, and for your family, but most of all for yourself and your life. Be safe, buckle up, and think.
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Today my mom, dad, brother, and Aunt Rose all decorated the outside of my house. Right now my mom and my Aunt are decorating the inside. I stayed in my room and cleaned. I just can't seem to get into the Holiday Spirit. Thanksgiving was great, I mean I was with alot of my family, the TITANS won, we had a delicious meal...it was good. But seeing my Aunt, and how sad and alone she was. Hearing her sob at different parts of the day. At one point, i got up from the table and had to get away because I was about to lose it. I had to be strong...for her.
The holiday's just don't feel the same anymore. With my Uncle gone, just recently. With half of my family in North Carolina, and with my Papa sick and my Nana gone as well. I just can't get in that happy, holiday spirit. I wish I could because Christmas is the best time of the year...usually.
I've never felt so alone in my life.
I miss you
RIP Nana March 17, 2000
RIP Uncle Al November 7, 2004
To Nick's family and friends, you're in my prayers.