Here's to a new year.
I'm only doing this early because 1.) I'm extremely bored. 2.) I have alot on my mind, so I'm gonna write it.
Glorious 2004
Hmm. Where do I begin? Well, on a positive note it was much better than 2003. Understandably 2004 had it's ups and downs, but it was pretty good I'd say.
One of the main things that sticks out in my head is losing my cousin Tina in July and losing my Uncle on November 7th. Two hardships of 2004. With Tina, I never saw her or talked to her but she was 18. That in itself made is really hard to cope with. No parent should have to bury their son/daughter. Nick Jennings is as well a perfect example, even though I never even knew the kid. Losing my Uncle was the hardest thing of the year. It was so sudden. I remember the phone call that morning and I remember the sadness in my mom's voice. I remember denying it. Then the wake...with hundreds of people there to say goodbye to the nicest man I knew. My memories of my Uncle Al are some of my fondest. He touched my heart in so many ways and he made me see how valuable life is. It is so hard to look at my Aunt now and see how alone and sad she is. Everyday I see her she breaks down. It's the hardest thing ever to deal with. My heart has holes that no one can ever fill. I love and miss you Uncle Al, RIP.
The second thing that sticks out about 2004 is the split. On the last day of sophomore year back in June I remember walking through the halls with Cait saying our goodbyes and "have a great summer, call me!" to everyone. I walked through the halls not realizing I'd never walk through those same halls as a Panther ever again. I remember hugging Kara for a good 5 minutes with tears in our eyes. A part of me understood that that was the last time i'd go to school with Kara along with alot of other people, but it hadn't hit me. I really don't think it hit me til junior year started up. It took a while to realize "hey, school isn't the same without these people." Then going to south for Early Childhood and having the oppurtunity to see my friends @ south. Ouch. This year I got to go to Homecoming @ North because I'm on student council. I thought to myself how excited i was for our own homecoming where I'd actually know everyone there. But then...it's like, wow only half of who I want to be there is going to be there. I hate how we are experiencing the last two years of this chapter of our lives and we have to do it with two buildings, two proms, two homecomings, two graduations, and basically two lives. Yea, I see a lot of people on the weekends and such, but that's our little group. It's the people who I just miss walking down the hall and exchanging smiles with that I really miss.
School itself sucks. Junior year is so hard, so stressful, and just crazy. AP English is a nightmare, the teacher is an absolute witch. Early Childhood is sadly a joke, which sucks because I was really looking forward to a great experience in that class. Psychology is great, which is good because that's going to be my major and hopefully my future. Physics is fun, but hard. Junior year is the most important year of highschool. Just so happens to be the hardest. Well, I guess that makes me look forward to senior year even more. =)
I learned alot this year. I learned that no boy is worth your tears, and when you find one who is he won't make you cry. I learned that trust can be broken in a split second and it could take a lifetime to get it back. I lost some friends this year, two that truly meant something to me at one point in my life. But hey, people change and things change, and that's just a way of life. I also learned that despite the fact that you are completely and genuinely happy with a guy and you get the most incredible feeling whenever you hear his name...you have so much to look forward to when you find the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Relationships are rather overrated in highschool, but it would be nice to have one last good one before I graduate. We'll see.
2004 had some amazing memories with the greatest friends in the world. That's one thing I truly learned this year --- how amazing my friends are. Through everything that has ever happened to me, they've been there through thick and thin. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for all of my friends. I love you all so much.
Hmm, well I guess that's it for now. As 2004 comes to an end I just want to leave everyone with this...
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break other hearts. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll cry becase time is passing so fast, and you'll eventually lose somebody you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely and love like you've never been hurt, because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back..
I love you, and Happy New Year! Be safe.
- bring it on 2005
<3* d a r c *
Glorious 2004
Hmm. Where do I begin? Well, on a positive note it was much better than 2003. Understandably 2004 had it's ups and downs, but it was pretty good I'd say.
One of the main things that sticks out in my head is losing my cousin Tina in July and losing my Uncle on November 7th. Two hardships of 2004. With Tina, I never saw her or talked to her but she was 18. That in itself made is really hard to cope with. No parent should have to bury their son/daughter. Nick Jennings is as well a perfect example, even though I never even knew the kid. Losing my Uncle was the hardest thing of the year. It was so sudden. I remember the phone call that morning and I remember the sadness in my mom's voice. I remember denying it. Then the wake...with hundreds of people there to say goodbye to the nicest man I knew. My memories of my Uncle Al are some of my fondest. He touched my heart in so many ways and he made me see how valuable life is. It is so hard to look at my Aunt now and see how alone and sad she is. Everyday I see her she breaks down. It's the hardest thing ever to deal with. My heart has holes that no one can ever fill. I love and miss you Uncle Al, RIP.
The second thing that sticks out about 2004 is the split. On the last day of sophomore year back in June I remember walking through the halls with Cait saying our goodbyes and "have a great summer, call me!" to everyone. I walked through the halls not realizing I'd never walk through those same halls as a Panther ever again. I remember hugging Kara for a good 5 minutes with tears in our eyes. A part of me understood that that was the last time i'd go to school with Kara along with alot of other people, but it hadn't hit me. I really don't think it hit me til junior year started up. It took a while to realize "hey, school isn't the same without these people." Then going to south for Early Childhood and having the oppurtunity to see my friends @ south. Ouch. This year I got to go to Homecoming @ North because I'm on student council. I thought to myself how excited i was for our own homecoming where I'd actually know everyone there. But then...it's like, wow only half of who I want to be there is going to be there. I hate how we are experiencing the last two years of this chapter of our lives and we have to do it with two buildings, two proms, two homecomings, two graduations, and basically two lives. Yea, I see a lot of people on the weekends and such, but that's our little group. It's the people who I just miss walking down the hall and exchanging smiles with that I really miss.
School itself sucks. Junior year is so hard, so stressful, and just crazy. AP English is a nightmare, the teacher is an absolute witch. Early Childhood is sadly a joke, which sucks because I was really looking forward to a great experience in that class. Psychology is great, which is good because that's going to be my major and hopefully my future. Physics is fun, but hard. Junior year is the most important year of highschool. Just so happens to be the hardest. Well, I guess that makes me look forward to senior year even more. =)
I learned alot this year. I learned that no boy is worth your tears, and when you find one who is he won't make you cry. I learned that trust can be broken in a split second and it could take a lifetime to get it back. I lost some friends this year, two that truly meant something to me at one point in my life. But hey, people change and things change, and that's just a way of life. I also learned that despite the fact that you are completely and genuinely happy with a guy and you get the most incredible feeling whenever you hear his name...you have so much to look forward to when you find the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. Relationships are rather overrated in highschool, but it would be nice to have one last good one before I graduate. We'll see.
2004 had some amazing memories with the greatest friends in the world. That's one thing I truly learned this year --- how amazing my friends are. Through everything that has ever happened to me, they've been there through thick and thin. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for all of my friends. I love you all so much.
Hmm, well I guess that's it for now. As 2004 comes to an end I just want to leave everyone with this...
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break other hearts. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll cry becase time is passing so fast, and you'll eventually lose somebody you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely and love like you've never been hurt, because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back..
I love you, and Happy New Year! Be safe.
- bring it on 2005
<3* d a r c *