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[xuffasch]

| phone ➞ entirely unfiltered |

( Damian is between stages 4 and 5 for the purposes of this post, though the nature of his secrets his making him panic a bit. However, compelled to blurt things out as he is, he's still trying to protect the big secrets. It's not going terribly well. )Honestly, I don’t know why I ever bother talking to you people,

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[Phone]

[notasidedick]

Damian. You're home right? We're meeting up. Asap. I don't care where exactly, but somewhere we can talk.

[He sounds a little worried. Okay. Really worried. Worried that Damian thinks he treats him as just an obligation.

Worried that he's outing himself as a Communist despite the fact he somehow contradicted himself while outing himself out. That would be almost laughable if he wasn't so worried.]

[notasidedick]

What do you mean by that exactly? [Raises an eyebrow.]

[xuffasch]

It means exactly what I said. Everyone just leaves eventually.

[notasidedick]

[He sighs a little.] I can't promise you I won't leave eventually. [Be it for work or dying or anything.] But I won't leave you because I want to. You're my brother and partner.

[xuffasch]

I don't need--I don't want--arg, damn it!

...I'm fine on my own.

[notasidedick]

Is that what you really feel? I could leave you alone if you don't want me around. [WHICH WOULD MAKE HIM SAD.]

[xuffasch]

...of course I don't want that, you idiot!

( and then he claps his hands over his mouth. yep. )

1/2

[notasidedick]

[THIS FACE. Keywords also relevant.]

2/2

[notasidedick]

Then what's the problem...?

Also, we need to go over this Communist thing you spewed about.

[xuffasch]

The problem is that you're going to go away eventually, and I'm just going to be here looking like an idiot for believing you wouldn't--

( long pause. deep breath. )

What's there to go over? I think I've pretty much said it all.

[notasidedick]

If you mean leave Mayfield without you. It won't happen.

If you mean eventually leaving. Well...I don't know what to say. I don't live forever and things will come up. But I'll come back. [Unless he like dies or something.]

How can you be Communist? Don't you have to believe the ideals to be so?

[xuffasch]

Tt. Yeah, whatever.

( hood is now up look what you've done grayson. )

...apparently not. Because while I find the entire concept ridiculous, I have no problem branding myself as one.

[notasidedick]

You're hiding.

[You and your hoods.]

That doesn't seem to make any sense, you realize. It's like a person who eats meat claiming to be vegetarian.

[xuffasch]

...I'm not hiding!

And so what? Maybe I know it doesn't make sense; I can't help saying it, anyway.

[notasidedick]

Then what's the hood for?

You mean, this place is making you say it then?

[xuffasch]

Obviously it's a psychological coping mechanism meant to make me feel unseen or protected in uncomfortable environments or situations.

...maybe. I don't know. Probably.