Well i thought after my last entry id probberly have a rarther uneventfull evening.just had a mass bath which seems to be my solution for when im ultra frustrated/upset etc i propperly had it going on candles, insence, mucho amount of warm towels,lights down and some mucho relaxing music going on with a steaming hot bath.im sure i sound such a lame ( Read more... )

I thought id waste away on here.yeesh i so havent slept at all i had to force myself to get in to bed last night or well this morning because was 6am lol but all i did was lie in bed till about 10 when i finally drifted for a couple hours but it wasnt even propper sleep if you get me.i just couldnt stop thinking about everything going on at the ( Read more... )

I honestly need to thank that i have some of the best people around me ever and to be really such an anus have only just come to realize how lucky iam.these people are the coffe and cream of my tea and always back me up no matter what and when they know im down they comfort me and when im away from home they make me feel like im at home again. ( Read more... )

Prehaps a little earlyier then usuall for me to be writting in here.but quite a bits happend already and know i will probberly not have time till tommorow to write a propper entry ( Read more... )

Well i had actually wrote this praticurly but being the anus iam decided to see what rich text mode did befor i had finished and accidently deleted the whole entry which i had spent a ludacris amount of about 30 minutes writting.yet im here writting my account of the activitys ive been up to again ( Read more... )

I think ive just realized iam acutally far more intoxicated then i first thought im alas unsure if this is a good or bad thing ( Read more... )

i fucking love it when i find i have more alcohol then i first imagined.honestly i fucking love it ( Read more... )

Yes so im sitting here again like nearly everyother night pretty drunk off my face desperately hopeing alchol will numb the pain as well as my body and prehaps if im lucky slip into a coma ( Read more... )

Befor i start i feel i have to annouce iam completely and utterly batterd out my face!anymore and i would pass out lol ( Read more... )

Ah im not really a fan for some reason of typeing in here at this hour because i find it easyier to vent frustration at night,wierd no?...yes ( Read more... )