I knew that if I gave it time things would fall into place without me having to lift a finger. The only problem with waiting is that once things come around it doesn't always mesh with what one wanted or was ready for. It seems that growing up means facing the reality of accepting being an adult in every sense, and you know, I don't know if I want ( Read more... )

See this. This is me...wanting to give up. This is me exhuasted. This is me putting all my hope into nothing time and time again.

This is me trying not to crash.

This is me with all my strength slowly washing away into tears.

This is me trying not to give up.

And now we interrupt the drama called recent life to return you to normalacy ( Read more... )

So much to do, nowhere to go, thoughts in my head, so much to say, I want the world to know, I want to go hug someone, I want to tell everyone everything but I have secrets that, once held, must be kept ( Read more... )

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Uh huh, cause life's like this....uh huh, that's the way it is...It just doesn't get better. I can smile all fucking day long and it will come back to the fact that nothing will get better. I sleep for 18 hours (how does one do that? I'm not sure, but I managed 3-9 spectacularily well) and life doesn't stop like I thought it would; I don't wake up ( Read more... )

he says: "change life. that's what no one seems to get ( Read more... )

So I sit here, 1pm on Friday afternoon and I feel normal despite my situation. I mean, my life is fucked right now on so many levels and yet I still have so much running through my head and I still have the same heartache and desperations that accompnaied my mind before all of this came to be earlier this week. I wake up in the morning and want to ( Read more... )

Somebody told me today I should publish this journal - I'd get a ton of cash for it. It was a compliment in the highest regards, so I decided to shove it in the back of my mind in the same way I've had to eat food for the last few days and just let it dissolve until it annoyed me and I had to deal with it. So I take a break from my chem to read ( Read more... )

Don't ever become me ( Read more... )