i went to my councilor yesturday to talk to her about my failing grades. she said i have to have my doctor fax her a thing on my depression so she knows i really have it, so she can have all my teachers bring my grades back up. thats only the good news. i also found out bad news today, my doctor is making me go to a councilor and get medicine. i ( Read more... )

i can finally come to say that i believe i am the happiest girl around.<3

number one thing in my life right now.

my friends that care for me. i want to thank the people who have been here with me and getting me through this hard situation i'm going through.

*Eva-i love you.
*Bean-thanks for last night.
*Juice-she's always there.
*Mike-he tries to talk to him for me.
*Taylor-she says the best things. ilove/missyou* ( Read more... )

what the fuck is wrong with me ( Read more... )

i'm crushed for life.

he doesn't know what he wants. i thought i was always what he wanted. i guess i was wrong in so many ways.

i don't want this to happen.

this is hurting me more then my year relationship. i never could have imagined it. i'm scared. i couldn't sleep last night, my brain was frying.

what am i to do?

today was the worst day ever.

i went to expressions and was talking to my sister and juice.
i broke down. ive never been so pissed in my life. i balled.
i think i also broke my pinky knuckle. it felt good to feel some concrete on my fist.

i don't need this.

you know.

i really fucking hate when things are going good.
then you see something that just fucks it up.

fuck everything &everyone. i'm done with this stupid bullshit.

my weekend was pretty alright ( Read more... )

nevermind that last entry. people are so stupid ( Read more... )

you know what.

don't fucking talk to me unless you know i like you.

ps. i went to the doctor today &they took 3 big things of blood. i feel sick now. i hate it. i either have hyper thyroid. really bad depression. or anemia. =( blahhhh. he also gave me sleeping pills. nothing is good in my life right now. nothing at all.

so fuck you.