I buried you along with my heart ♥
it actually went by A LOT faster than I thought. After all of that was over, I had detention. Good thing Shana and Jay were there. Jay was like in front/across from me, and Shana behind me. I was reading her journal. It really inspired me. So I wrote my feelings down. I think I like that better. Write EVERY SINGLE feeling I have at that damn moment. It's different than writing an entry on Xanga or Livejournal. It like, means more when I write it. So I really got thinking. And.. yeah. I started to cry. ): Shana read all of it. Four full pages. Front & Back. She is such a good friend. But... I wish she were nice online. Kinda weird how someone can change online, lol. I'm all the same. So then afterwards, Jay came over. My mom didn't seem TOO hapyp for that. She was just like, " Hi." And like, "Is that the guy you've been talking to a lot lately?" And i'm like, " Yes, mom. HE'S MY FRIEND." Like, she wouldn't mind me having a boyfriend, seeing that I used to tell her before... but I don't want her knowing or thinking I'm doing "stuff" with him. So I jsut say he's my friend so that he could come over. It's so hard to explain. I just don't like to tell them my really personal stuff. ): Yeah. So we were downstairs. And like, finally... made out without me talking in the middle of it. It isn't so hard. lol. I had my hawnds down his pawnts when we were making out standing up, then, I heard my mom like, " Vaniaa, come here" and I could tell she was near the stairs. So I just pushed Jay over, lol. Sorry if this bothers you. I mean, I just want to be specific. If it bothers you, tell me. My apoligies. I'm new to these things. After, Laura came over. Then we went to Burger King where I had fries. Jay and Jess and Laura were there. (: I hate to admit this. It'll be a little secret. But I was tempted to eat that fucking hamburger. ): I felt so guilty afterwards. Then, we drove Jay home.
Today was okay. At the end of the day, I called Jay's name. I thought he saw me, and just ignored me. I was like ughhh. So I told Patrick about it. But then when we were outside, I told him. And he said, "oh! That was you? I didn't know who it was." And then we just stood there and Patrick was with Courtney. Then he had to go. It just kinda makes me like ughhh when I want to kiss him, and he is like, noo people are lookingggg. Like, before, it was ME saying that. Now he's the one saying it. Oh well. (: But by kiss, I don't mean "a peck". Haha, I just don't wanna say "make out" in this entry anymore. It makes me sound desperate.
Me and Courtney had to stay after school for class detention. Then Ms. Gallop asked me if I was going to switch out of Adv. English. She just randomly said it. I guess it's cause I had a 66% ): But now i have a 70%. ): Makes me sad. I need to do better in school work. Especially English. After that was over with, we walked over to the Middle School and Courtney's mom was having a wedding shower? I normally don't eat cake, but I did and it wasn't so bad. Then, they gave me a ride home. Before that, Courtney randomly said, " well grab my balls and call me parakeet!" but in this tone. it was funny. haha. (:
The End.
Today was okay. At the end of the day, I called Jay's name. I thought he saw me, and just ignored me. I was like ughhh. So I told Patrick about it. But then when we were outside, I told him. And he said, "oh! That was you? I didn't know who it was." And then we just stood there and Patrick was with Courtney. Then he had to go. It just kinda makes me like ughhh when I want to kiss him, and he is like, noo people are lookingggg. Like, before, it was ME saying that. Now he's the one saying it. Oh well. (: But by kiss, I don't mean "a peck". Haha, I just don't wanna say "make out" in this entry anymore. It makes me sound desperate.
Me and Courtney had to stay after school for class detention. Then Ms. Gallop asked me if I was going to switch out of Adv. English. She just randomly said it. I guess it's cause I had a 66% ): But now i have a 70%. ): Makes me sad. I need to do better in school work. Especially English. After that was over with, we walked over to the Middle School and Courtney's mom was having a wedding shower? I normally don't eat cake, but I did and it wasn't so bad. Then, they gave me a ride home. Before that, Courtney randomly said, " well grab my balls and call me parakeet!" but in this tone. it was funny. haha. (:
The End.