so im just here chillen with bella. we both decided that we feel weird cos were both single at the same time, which hasnt happend in god knows how long lol. but its ok. i say. lol on our walk to timmies, we had some great rants and theories, --> thers no point in draging a relationship on and lying if theres little feeling in it anymore, cos you ( Read more... )

Together ( Read more... )

hm. i dont get it. im not supposed to be feeling like this.. i mean.. im supposed to be all happy an excited n stuff...like... i got more hours at work, i got accepted to college, im back at home and things are good with my sister and i... so why am i feeling like this?...why do i think too much? thinking is never a good thing...never. i was told ( Read more... )

ok so a few more things to update anyone who reads this on ( Read more... )

yep so i just realized that yesterday was april fools. lol i dont think anyone even rememberd lol. so the new news on moi. cosi havent written much [other than my brokeback mountain rant] ok so on sunday ...last week sunday...sam came over to my house when i was sick with chicken noodle soup, movies, and flowers, for moi! lol i should get sick more ( Read more... )

ok SO ... i just watched brokeback mountain. and. well i almost cried. NO ONE TOLD ME THAT HE DIES AT THE END!!! Thats so not cool. like i mean! he gets beaten to death by some ASSHOLES and then everyone thinks that it was some accident where a tire blew up and blah blah blah and no one will even know the TRUTH!! (i mean like his family and heath ( Read more... )

so i just watched "Diary of a mad black woman" god i love that movie. and now for some reason, im thinking alot. about what i said before, about fighting for some things that arnt worth fighting for. dont get me wrong. im still not fighting. because i dont want to. not because im just "giving up" like i said i was. but because i honestly dont want ( Read more... )

well... so this morning, after sitting around for a while..thinking... i have come to the conclusion that... i'm just gonna give up. theres no point in trying to fight, if i've already lost. right? not like it would do me any good. i think it would just upset me more prolly. give me reason to blame myself more than i do. *shrugs* [what do you do ( Read more... )

im so damn bored! like... i cant sleep cos when i lay down i cough.. and when im sitting here.. i get a really bad headache! well i was just at one of my old LJ's, the one i made for my songs and poems [ www.livejournal.com/~crys_out_4_help ] and i was reading some of my old stuff... interesting... i guess some things never change. anywho.. so i ( Read more... )

ok so because im sick and all...i wake up like every hour or so coughing my lungs out...annnnd then cant fall back asleep for a while. which sucks ass ( Read more... )