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I'm going to post some of the things I've written..don't know why..I just think I should..I wrote every line..tell me what you think, if you actually read it..there's a lot..
So hide my face in the shadows
So I can once again become obsolete
Keep my feelings secret so no one knows
As you rip the earth from beneath my feet
Every promise you spoke
Meant everything to me
Just like every smile you faked
Until I realized they were nothing but empty
Blank photo albums never meant so much
Missing letters never became such
Until you turned your back on my life
To keep this tint of sorrow
Isn't worth fighting for one more tomorrow
Your sounds of silence
Are more powerful than the bullet through my heart
No one else cares
So why should I?
You don't matter..
I can breathe you out in a single sigh
Your face is a black hole
I could kill these stars in your eyes easily
But for once
I don't mind the constellations being so distant
As much as I love you
You never change
As much as I hate you
You stay the same
Midnight was nothing but a mark
Rain drops counted down the seconds
To when you lit the spark
My heart has turned to ash
And you're holding the match
Where do I go when trust bends?
It's too bad I can't read on...
There's a tear in the page where the story ends.
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I'm desperate for a sign
Just so I know you're there
Looking for pictures of you in my mind
But I'm trapped and tangled in a cross vine
Soothe my fearful heart
Calm it with words of loose tension
This place is ripping me apart
Waiting to be rescued by a divine intervention
The shimmering image of your face
Melting in a pool of liquid love
I'm dying on the inside
There's no one here to comfort me
Won't lonliness be my bride
So that I would drop down to one knee
I'm chained to myself
But no one can set me free
I'm sick of this cage...
Would you call this a tragedy?
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Broken Exposure.
It's a skill that can't be taught
Making pain come with every thought
It's living a sorrow
While taking a burden...
Falling by your needles
Trapped by your chains
Caught by your cradles
Killed by your pains
Broken Exposure.
You never knew me.
Don't speak.
You'd only tell more lies
Don't move.
You'd only dart your eyes
You are so convinced
That I'm the only problem in your life
You can't see my back...deflowered by a knife
You can't even open your eyes forward
And recognize the gun you're staring toward
Broken Exposure.
You never fucking knew me.
Ever.
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You're just another ripple in the lake
The story is still the same
You're just another heart ache
That's the truth behind our incredible pain
If it's honesty you want
You've come to the right place
Within three words, you made my soul daunt
I guess you're just another hopeless case
Don't think this means I miss you.
I lose no sleep over people such as yourself
If I did, sleep would be a worthless tool
So don't expect to see your picture on a shelf
Because you aren't exactly a polished jewel
Before you pick up the phone
Please do me a favor and reconsider
'Cause I'd appreciate it if you just left me alone
Don't think this means I miss you.
You affect none of my choices
And none of my dreams
So drown out the voices
And break the blood bound seams
When you find yourself used
Drowning in a pool of self drawn blood
Try not to look so confused
And just remember...it was never love.
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Self induced hate is not something we condone
To let this river flow
Is something no one can comprehend on their own
But the reality is spent and time is slow
Close the door because
What you will come to see
It's not what you are
But what you set free
I'd rather be dead...than alone.
Scarlet kisses and poison drips
Twisted roses around broken tips
Break the mirror, shatter the glass
The final stone has sorrowfully been cast
I'd rather be dead... than alone.
Mere words don't deserve the attention of tears.
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Timeless expressions and soft serenity
Encrypted in a grain of sand
A thorned rose is forsaken beauty
Exiled into a forgotten land
Look up into the sky
Don't fear the Heavens
Let loose a sigh
Watch life through an hourless mist
See the sins disappear in a haze
Rule every flame with an iron fist
Treat every question as if it were a maze
Dreams don't affect reality...
Reality affects our dreams
Celestial anguish screaming through the system
The elements are not something to provoke
Hold your breath
Lest on your own fear you choke
Cold flames and lethargic speed
Deafening silence wakes blinding vision
One last warning I bid you heed
With one last step, the Heavens shatter with fission
Dreams don't affect reality...
Reality affects our dreams
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Don't put your hands to my face
Deception begins with a kiss
Don't bother saying good bye
You won't be missed...
Fifteen years of memories etched in stone
Now your eyes are weary with malice and spite
Your name is something I must disown
Because you stopped caring when you felt it was right
Lift me up
Push me down
Let me stumble and fall
Just let me crawl
Betrayl is something most look at with disgust
I look at you and just wonder how
You could've ever had my trust
If I'm a bad taste in your mouth
Then sew it shut
Because I never want your suffering to end
Why can't I learn my lesson?
Why won't you let me go?
You're hiding a confession
That only hasted reality will show
It's just a minute of my time
So why do I feel so beat down
I've been mixed and served with wine
Oh well, I guess I'll come around
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Burning across the red sand
A fire spreads
Consuming all of the sentenced land
Life's last hope hanging on by threads
Insanity in the heavens
Created by an unholy explosion
Glowing darkness plagues the sevens
Acid drops, nothing but corrosion
The earth crumbles beneath our feet
Below they see it as a shattered reality
But above they see it as deceit
The blood in the accused veins
Flowing like time
Runs as free as the rain
Tangled only by summer's vine
Freezing in winter's flame
Embedded in cold stream's mud
Churning in autumn's shame
Left swirling in a river of blood
Stride through the hate spilled world
You are my savior of misery...