i couldn't react when he told me, i couldn't react cause i couldn't breathe. im scared. im scared because i love him and i don't know if we can deal with this if our relationship is strong enough to handle it. i hope it is, i hope we can find away around this, find away to make it work. im worried about who he will meet there, what if he falls in ( Read more... )

wow today sucked. alot. im so scared of the future. i have no idea what i am going to do with my life or what i want to do with my life. i have nothing i really like or anything i am good at. when i get asked the famous question of where do you picture yourself in 20 years i just draw a blank. and its really scaring me ( Read more... )

This weekend has been weird, it doesn't feel like it has really started yet. Friday sucked so much, all day i just felt out of place, so fuck friday ( Read more... )

If a dream is a wish your heart makes, then what is a nightmare?

you know that feeling after you get novocaine in your mouth where it feels really weird when you drink ice water? almost like the water is hot. thats how my mouth feels without the nice numbness. my whole mouth is all chewed up and nasty. and my lips are chapped like no other. i wish i had gotten sleep last night, i would have been grateful for ( Read more... )

You Have a Choleric Temperament
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oh and lastly.
i love my parents.
i love mike.
i love my close friends.
i love each and everyone of you for everything you have done for me, even if its the smallest suggestion or congratulation, or the weakest simle, little things like that make me happy everyday, all day.

im sorry for the long entrys.
you can ignore them.
i just had to get that

tonight when looking for a foulder for school i found on of my favorite books from when i was younger. its called Where The Sidewalk Ends by Shel Silverstein. and although most books i liked when i was a little kid i think are cute now few do i consider one of my favorites still. its a great book. and i love how it can mean so many diffrent things ( Read more... )

i had a great day today ( Read more... )

i think everything will be ok as long as i can function. as long as i can get out of bed everyday and asleep everynight.