This Isn't Funny At All.

[xxanti_narbxx]

I hate my body so much. I'm not even kidding. It pisses me off to even look in the mirror. No one even knows I feel this way about myself. I've tried telling my friend how much I wish I could just lose weight and never put it back on. My friend acts like she thinks that I'm just kidding. The truth is, I'm not kiddng

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[xxanti_narbxx]

I thought that i'd use this urge to my advantage and write about it.
Yeah, I feel this way everyday and it causes me to purge or to fast.
You're right. Is everyone is focusing on flaws you will never see all the beauty.
Haha, I'm glad you're not Dr.Phill. I hate that man. -_-

[xxanti_narbxx]

I've seen his show once and I was like "loln"

Yeah, those bad things can turn into a work of art.
Haha, you kinda do sound like him.
But, it's all good.

[diet_absinthe]

Welllll. I stumbled across this after reading your fic, and I know how you feel. I'm going through the same crap at the moment. I recently went to the doctors' and they told me my weight, and ever since then I haven't been eating enough. My family doesn't notice anything. It's not that dramatic for me, because I'm too much of a coward to purge since the only time I did I ending up throwing up blood and it scared me. But I'm working out like crazy and not eating enough, and I'm tired all the time. My stepmom was being bitchy earlier today so I just left home for a few hours and took a walk, and I felt like I was going to fall over the entire time. I had nothing in my stomach but red wine and some pasta, and that's pretty much all I've had today. I hate eating. I totally get how you feel, wanting to just not have to eat for the rest of your life.

So I don't know. We're not going through exactly the same things but I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I know how bad it feels. And I guess I'm here for you even if you want to talk or don't.
<3

[xxanti_narbxx]

Yeah, I weigh myself everyday several times a day. It's pretty bad how obsessed I am with my body. Yeah, like I said my family doesn't notice either. You threw up blood? I purge several times a day and have only thrown up blood once. Why was she being bitchy? did it have to do with eating and stuff?

Thanks. I know we're not going through the same thing but having somone know how i feel makes me feel better

[diet_absinthe]

I honestly have no idea why I threw up blood. I might have been sick, but I was pretty depressed back then and don't remember much. A lot of different things might have been going on.
My stepmom used to make fun of me all the time because I ate a lot. This was like, age eleven. She used to call me a binge eater and say I'd be chubby when I grew up. She's been doing it again because she notices how obsessive I am when I eat certain things. Like, I'll eat really slowly and try to draw it out so I'm full faster. So that was what she was mad about earlier.

[xxanti_narbxx]

Jeez. I don't get why people have to tease people like us about these things. They don't know what's going on in our lives. They don't even try to know. My mom used to tease me and it upset me so much. She didn't know what was going on and it didn't help that she would tease me. The teasing just made me feel worse. Sometimes she still teases me, but idk.