blaaah
I'm sick of trying so hard...
so here's the truth
you were right all along
you were never my friends
i was living a lie
but i wont fall for it next time
you figured me out
like a leaf in the wind
i try to find who i am
but wind up lost in the end
sometimes its hard to know whats real when your not
cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me
but i'm sick of trying so hard
waste all your time with me
i know i'm a mess right now
dont give up believe
i'd wait it out for you
waste all your time with me
i know i'm a mess right now
dont give up believe
i'd wait it out for you
everyday i'm just making my rounds
just digging a hole 6 feet underground
sometimes its hard to know whats real when your not
cause you know i change myself to impress whoever happens to be next to me
but i'm sick of trying so hard
waste all your time with me
i know i'm a mess right now
dont give up believe
i'd wait it out for you
waste all your time with me
i know i'm a mess right now
dont give up believe
i'd wait it out for you
nothings here for me
nothings here for me
nothings here for me
but you
waste all your time with me
i know i'm a mess right now
dont give up believe
i'd wait it out for you
waste all your time with me
i know i'm a mess right now
dont give up believe
i'd wait it out for you
i'd wait it out for you!
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I can't get him off my mind.
And I hate this. I've been doing so much to distract me. I folded all my clothes, I've talked to a few different people that I knew would put me in a good mood. But I have an idle mind, and he pops in it.
I just want something to be right with me when it comes to boyfriends or even just a healthy dating relationship.
It's all I've ever wanted. Someone to have conversation with, someone who I can just be around and not have to say one word, but knows what I'm thinking. Someone who will kiss me, cuddle with me, watch movies with me, who will laugh at my cheesy jokes or horrid dance moves...
Someone who will sing out loud with me.
...Someone who won't break my heart. Someone who won't hurt me. Someone who won't leave me for what they think might be something better...
I guess that's too much to ask for.