Today was really great and horrible....I got out of bed really early because my mom was yelling at me ( Read more... )

I wish I was ignorant.Things were so much easier back then.You have no fear of drowning if you've never been shoved below the water's surface.You have no fear of love if you've never had your heart torn to shreds and trampled upon.You don't worry about trusting others when you've never been fucked over or lied to.I wish I could go back...back to ( Read more... )

Alright so my DAY was awful because of certain things I won't get into...but tonight was pretty cool. :) A lot of things have happened in the past few days that have been really fucked up...and my aunt vanessa -i'm really close to her- came over and we decorated for my mom's surprise birthday party.Well we were talking about all the shit that ( Read more... )

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Well today I went to the mall with my mom,sister and aunt-the one from California-.I had been asking to get my ears peirced a second time,but my mom would never give me a solid answer.Today I got my ears periced again.It was very spur of the moment.Maggie wanted hers done once even though Mom told her she couldn't until she was like 12.I went first ( Read more... )

Well I figured it was time for an update,even though I'm not really sure what to write about.School starts in exactly ten days.Oh how I loathe it.I only have one class with my best friend,which means I'll have to endure the rest of the mormons(morons...don't ask) on my own.This sucks nards,and not in a good way,mind you. ;D ;D Lol...anyway I don't ( Read more... )

Well my dad couldn't come over today.He called my Papa back from the hospital and said he had a hernia...so he was all drugged up on morphine and he has to go back later for surgery,but he doesn't have anyone else to run his store,so he's going to work tomorrow.Papa said he'd drop me off there for a few hours.I plan on talking to him about...a lot ( Read more... )

Well it was a long drive up here.Papa endured my music the whole way.Just because he loves me...I think I traumatized him...Lol.We went to Red Lobster for dinner...just for me. ^^ The host told me he liked my shirt...Rocky Horror Picture Show and started talking to me.He kept coming by our table to flirt.He looked about 20.Lol.Then my Nana said we ( Read more... )

Well tomorrow my Papa is coming to pick me up! ^^ Which means a five hour AFI marathon in the car!!!WHOOT!I looooooooooooooooove my Papa and Nana soOoOOooo much!They are the only people in my family that I truly feel love me no matter what...no matter what unnatural color my hair is or how many peircings and tattoos I want...no matter how much ( Read more... )

All of a sudden I feel so sad.I want more than anything to feel someone's arms around me.I want to feel their love for me in every touch and every word.I bet anyone who read this is going to be sick to their stomach.This is my journal though and this is how I'm feeling.So I'm writing about it.I hate being so fucking lonely'Don't look don't look,' ( Read more... )