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(00:21:15) Sir Areus: If things were like they were before would you wanna be with my again?
(00:21:27) oceansoul8188: Not really, I think I kind of moved on.
(00:22:44) Sir Areus: You don't see me as a best friend anymore do you?
(00:23:01) oceansoul8188: After all the things you said...it's kind of hard to.
(00:23:08) oceansoul8188: Sorry. :\
(00:24:37) Sir Areus: Everything we said was out of pain... we both did it why hold things at each others throats? I mean we could have everything back if we want just like thing were one year ago...
(00:24:58) oceansoul8188: Still, I can never forgive you of some of the things you said.
(00:25:51) Sir Areus: Why? there just words... I think our actions are more powerfull
(00:26:14) oceansoul8188: Words to me are actions.
(00:27:28) Sir Areus: I guess I should not want you back... I don't know why I do... I just have a lot of love to give.
(00:27:51) oceansoul8188: I am sorry, you hurt me too much near the end.
(00:28:37) Sir Areus: I kinda committed my life to you when you said you would marry me... and now I have no direction
(00:29:20) Sir Areus: meh... I got over most things but I still find myself trying not to think of all the good times we had
(00:30:21) Sir Areus: when it rained the other day it reminded me of cypress gardens and it hurt to look outside because all i could think of was how awesome that day was...
(00:31:05) Sir Areus: I am fine but then things just reminded me of how much better life can be when I am not alone...
(00:31:18) Sir Areus: has anything like that happened to you yet?
(00:31:28) oceansoul8188: To be honest? No.
(00:32:45) Sir Areus: I guess when you fall out of love you don't care at all anymore...
(00:32:58) oceansoul8188: Like I said before, you hurt me and I moved on.
(00:33:24) Sir Areus: At least your strong
(00:34:18) Sir Areus: So wahts important in life to you now a days?
(00:34:47) oceansoul8188: elaborate
(00:34:51) Sir Areus: your band,school, someone new,friends?
(00:36:03) Sir Areus: that sort of thing?
(00:36:06) oceansoul8188: Oh
(00:36:37) oceansoul8188: Schooling, friends, and possibly a new relationship with this guy because he keeps on dropping me hints or something...dunno.
(00:37:09) Sir Areus: ohh...
(00:38:11) Sir Areus: tell me the truth do you like this other guy?
(00:38:31) oceansoul8188: He's a good friend, I dont know yet. I am kind of tired with the whole relationship thing.
(00:38:52) Sir Areus: Yeah I just wanna say this as a friend...
(00:39:28) Sir Areus: I hope if you do find someone else you don't let them take advantage of you
(00:39:46) Sir Areus: thats what most men are about
(00:40:12) Sir Areus: I am just one of the few men who don't think that sex is that important
(00:40:56) oceansoul8188: He doesn't either. In fact, with all the relationships he's been in, he's never had sex once just for the fact that he thinks it's too important to lose if you're not with somone you truley trust.
(00:41:14) Sir Areus: I would hate to hear someone got forceful with you after they think just because there in a relationship you will go all the way thats all
(00:42:00) Sir Areus: I guess I can see who you moved on so fast now... I hope you don't take that as a insult
(00:42:49) oceansoul8188: I told you, I was thinking about it.
(00:42:58) oceansoul8188: I didn't just jump in right away when he asked me out.
(00:43:03) oceansoul8188: I told him to give me more time.
(00:43:09) Sir Areus: ohh
(00:44:13) Sir Areus: look is obvious i still have feelings for you but I don't think I wanna be with you if you can't forgive me... I still want to be at least one of your best friends
(00:44:57) oceansoul8188: It would be hard to rank you as a top friend...my true friends don't diss on me or my friends.
(00:45:34) Sir Areus: You don't want to forgive me i guess but as a said i am sorry
(00:45:51) Sir Areus: lizz wants to be my friend i guess
(00:47:11) Sir Areus: I am sorry I still have love for you even after I have split myself in two, gave up, died, been reborn, and got over it
(00:47:53) Sir Areus: I think you do too but you just wanna get things behind you so you don't get hurt again...
(00:48:57) Sir Areus: does that sound true?
(00:49:24) oceansoul8188: Maybe.
(00:50:33) Sir Areus: I know you don't wanna take a chance at me hurting you again but I still want to try
(00:51:07) Sir Areus: Can we hangout and see if we are still in love?
(00:51:51) Sir Areus: if we do and we still like each other then we can go for it and if not we know for sure?
(00:52:11) Sir Areus: I mean the stuff that was ripping us apart is soon at a end
(00:52:25) Sir Areus: what do you think?
(00:52:26) oceansoul8188: I don't think I can do that.
(00:52:35) oceansoul8188: Sorry.
(00:52:40) Sir Areus: part of you wants to...
(00:53:00) oceansoul8188: But a lot of me doesn't.
(00:53:08) Sir Areus: I am sorry for the world of pain I have made
(00:53:23) Sir Areus: Its been like this for both of us
(00:53:36) oceansoul8188: I am happy now, I really am. This week has been one of my greatest, funnest weeks that I have had in a long time.
(00:54:06) Sir Areus: I was for me too I mean everyone was there for me
(00:54:34) Sir Areus: and they did such a good job at keeping me busy but now I wanna rest
(00:55:33) Sir Areus: Rachael you know the person I am
(00:55:49) oceansoul8188: I do.
(00:56:31) Sir Areus: I am that person who asked you out last year again and he too would have asked you to come back to him if everything that happened happened
(00:57:35) Sir Areus: I changed and became bad but now that I am a more happy and fun person I want to show it to you
(00:57:47) oceansoul8188: Jessie, I already gave you a chance.
(00:57:51) oceansoul8188: You blew it
(00:58:08) oceansoul8188: You said it would be the only chance that I would accept.
(00:58:16) oceansoul8188: And, well, that didn't work out, did it?
(00:58:31) oceansoul8188: No, we have moved on.
(00:58:45) oceansoul8188: We are not who we were in the beginning, probably never will
(00:59:27) Sir Areus: thats was not really a chance i mean you blocked me when i thought we were on good terms and I thought somthing was really wrong so i called you and your dad gave me the news that its over
(00:59:48) Sir Areus: that was a unfair chance to me
(00:59:57) Sir Areus: don't you think?
(01:00:13) oceansoul8188: No, I said I wanted a break
(01:00:16) oceansoul8188: You kept bothering me
(01:00:20) oceansoul8188: I didn't wnt to talk
(01:00:26) Sir Areus: three days later i talked to you?
(01:00:30) oceansoul8188: then you started to call my dad even though you knew we were on break
(01:00:33) oceansoul8188: yes
(01:00:40) oceansoul8188: I kept blocking you
(01:00:47) oceansoul8188: you kept posing as somone else trying to come back
(01:00:54) oceansoul8188: even signing on to my account
(01:00:56) oceansoul8188: I was mad that day
(01:00:57) Sir Areus: your right
(01:01:00) Sir Areus: nvm
(01:01:03) oceansoul8188: You almost got me into so much trouble.
(01:01:39) Sir Areus: I am sorry its hard loosing the one you love
(01:03:28) Sir Areus: Its very clear you did not love me like I loved you... This is just your first real relationship and I never really loved laura and thats why I was able to brake up with her and I think you did the same thing with me. I know exactly how it feels to not wanna brake up with someone to hurt there feelings and I know exactly how good it feels to be free from someone elses love
(01:03:38) Sir Areus: your never gonna go back to me
(01:04:05) Sir Areus: your too much like me
(01:04:18) Sir Areus: I did the same thing and now I know how laura feels
(01:05:30) oceansoul8188: Don't get me wrong Jessie, I loved you a lot.
(01:05:41) Sir Areus: everything was going fine until she lied to me and instead of being a lover and frogiving her i ended it
(01:05:53) oceansoul8188: But, from the way we were going, I knew we wouldn't last in the future.
(01:06:06) Sir Areus: we whould if we were together
(01:06:10) Sir Areus: thats my whole point
(01:06:22) Sir Areus: its the stress that made us fight
(01:06:42) Sir Areus: who wants to be with someone they see 3 times in 4 months
(01:06:50) Sir Areus: that sucks
(01:07:17) Sir Areus: I can see how easy it is to loose interest in me when i am not there to romance you
(01:07:25) Sir Areus: when all we can do is talk on aim
(01:07:32) Sir Areus: tell each other of our shit days
(01:07:41) oceansoul8188: No, I was still interested in you. It's your actions that made me go away.
(01:07:45) Sir Areus: days that would be good if we go to see each other
(01:08:02) oceansoul8188: I mean, you started to get all emotional all the time, and I couldn't take it anymore.
(01:08:14) oceansoul8188: Then you started to blame my friends on me changing.
(01:08:17) Sir Areus: well gezz rach if i can't atone for my actions
(01:08:31) Sir Areus: what can i do?
(01:08:36) oceansoul8188: ??
(01:08:52) Sir Areus: rach if a plant dies I will blame god for not making it rain
(01:09:10) Sir Areus: i am not even Christan
(01:09:56) Sir Areus: I said somethings out of anger and there were not under good thinking or anythinking
(01:10:04) Sir Areus: so did you
(01:10:15) Sir Areus: we are human
(01:10:38) Sir Areus: but why let that ruin love the one thing that makes it all worth it
(01:10:57) Sir Areus: love we still have and love that can be rebuilt
(01:11:02) oceansoul8188: But, if you are willing to do that out of anger, what else would happen if you got angry.
(01:11:11) Sir Areus: thats it
(01:11:49) Sir Areus: that was as angry as i can get and I could not life a sheet of paper to write it down when i am like that
(01:12:05) Sir Areus: I am the worst angery person ever lol
(01:14:31) Sir Areus: I am sorry it takes a lot to get me angery and when i do i don't know how to act because its like once every two years that i am truly angery
(01:15:32) oceansoul8188: I am sorry. I mean, there has to be a reason why everyone I know disapproves of you.
(01:15:35) Sir Areus: I know your over me but why go that far to leave me behind when there can be so much more for us in life
(01:15:46) Sir Areus: who is everyone
(01:15:56) Sir Areus: who? no one knows me
(01:16:05) Sir Areus: I am he least popular person ever
(01:16:12) Sir Areus: give me some names?
(01:16:19) oceansoul8188: I am talking of the people I know
(01:16:26) Sir Areus: ohh
(01:16:39) oceansoul8188: My mother, my father, Andrew, Lizz, Karrie...basically, everyone I introduced to you.
(01:16:48) Sir Areus: the people i don't know who don''t know me
(01:17:39) Sir Areus: I see... everyone told me I could do better then you but I told everyone to fuck off because I don't care about what they don't know
(01:17:47) Sir Areus: this was a year ago
(01:18:01) Sir Areus: my own family
(01:18:10) oceansoul8188: Well then, listen to them.
(01:18:26) oceansoul8188: I mean, you probably could do a lot better then me.
(01:19:31) Sir Areus: maybe but I don't want a new kittie
(01:19:43) Sir Areus: if my kittie gets sick i don't get a new one
(01:21:28) Sir Areus: I understand now because of this conversation that you just don't wanna be with me... as much as you love me its just not gonna work if no one likes me and your upset with
(01:22:54) Sir Areus: I just want you to know that nothing is unforgivable and I do still have feelings for you but I guess I am gonna have to wait until I can find someone else... I just hate the thought of any one other then you kissing me... it makes me sick
(01:25:05) oceansoul8188: :\
(01:27:01) Sir Areus: I am sorry I can't say I have done everything I can to keep us in love but if I did I might have looked like a lot worst of a person then you thought I was
(01:27:51) Sir Areus: I mean I could have came to your house in the middle of the night with flowers and tried to get you to forgive me but that would have been the worst thing to do
(01:28:28) Sir Areus: I mean would that not have looked worst
(01:29:10) Sir Areus: everything I ever did that you thought bad of me for was out of desperation to be loved and to be assured that you still want me
(01:29:22) Sir Areus: but I guess its that that drove you away
(01:29:56) Sir Areus: can you say I did everything I could?
(01:30:12) oceansoul8188: No. You put this upon yourself.
(01:30:24) oceansoul8188: And, I thought I unblocked to be friends?
(01:30:26) oceansoul8188: But, no.
(01:30:31) Sir Areus: ack
(01:30:43) oceansoul8188: Just another arguement.
(01:30:44) Sir Areus: well I don wanna be friends
(01:30:50) Sir Areus: do*
(01:30:53) oceansoul8188: I am sorry, I can't do this anymore.
(01:30:58) Sir Areus: your right
(01:31:08) Sir Areus: dont talk to me please I will just want you back
(01:31:16) oceansoul8188: ...
(01:31:27) Sir Areus: I can't do this to myself
(01:32:21) Sir Areus: I just wanna love you but until you cut yourself out of mylife i am gonna think theres a chance you still want me
(01:33:11) Sir Areus: i really wish this was easy
(01:33:24) Sir Areus: I wish we could say hay things did not work to bad lets go
(01:33:53) Sir Areus: and your trying to do just that and i am here trying to get you back like a fool in love
(01:34:08) Sir Areus: love makes me stupid when it does not go right
(01:35:02) Sir Areus: I gotta go If I am not blocked I might talk to you later but you don't need to hear my bullshit and i don't need to say it
(01:35:17) oceansoul8188: ...
(01:35:20) oceansoul8188: bye...
(01:35:37) Sir Areus: thanks bye
(01:36:00) Sir Areus logged out.
Blocked!