::cheers::
...to the summer of enlightenment. I wrote this essay for Jon, but instead of it being solely from his point of view, i found myself expressing how i feel...
I can resist everything except temptation.
Yet, through my eyes, I see temptation all around me. And I act on my temptations, allowing myself to go to extremes, to seek knowledge that lies beyond the planes of the naked eye.
One of my most vigorous enticements are drugs. Being pressured into sampling my first mouthful was enough: I could no longer resist the temptation. Through the years, I’ve dealt with many experiences that rested solely on the results of drug use.
Although there were many positive experiences, they are ultimately outweighed by the negative. I have gotten into fights with friends and family, teachers, even harmless people on the sidelines. Arguments and brawls that could have been avoided, yet due to my higher state of consciousness, weren’t. As I reflect on these occurrences, I wonder if I’d have more friends if I didn’t use drugs, or keep different company. I also wonder if I’d have better grades in school, or a better home life.
Naturally, I can’t blame 100% of my problems on a few good times, but I know in the back of my mind that other, healthier passions in life would have led me down a completely different path. But I think the mystery of not knowing what will happen next keeps me coming back for more. The out of body experiences that define a night, or a weekend, or my whole life, and the feeling of well-being that tempts me into returning to that state of mind.
If resisting temptation weren’t an issue for the human race, life wouldn’t be interesting, or varied. People would be robots. And although I see the wrong in some temptation, I’ve yet to find a way to fight it. Hence, my path is still staggered, and I’m still searching for an outlet that has yet to come.
Hopefully, this summer will be more grounded. I signed up for online classes today, which makes it feel like the begining of summer...officially. And this essay was the icing on the cake...
I'm just hoping to learn a lot, gain new experiences, knowledge. even if i have to take some bad with the good, im totally prepared.
start your engines...
I can resist everything except temptation.
Yet, through my eyes, I see temptation all around me. And I act on my temptations, allowing myself to go to extremes, to seek knowledge that lies beyond the planes of the naked eye.
One of my most vigorous enticements are drugs. Being pressured into sampling my first mouthful was enough: I could no longer resist the temptation. Through the years, I’ve dealt with many experiences that rested solely on the results of drug use.
Although there were many positive experiences, they are ultimately outweighed by the negative. I have gotten into fights with friends and family, teachers, even harmless people on the sidelines. Arguments and brawls that could have been avoided, yet due to my higher state of consciousness, weren’t. As I reflect on these occurrences, I wonder if I’d have more friends if I didn’t use drugs, or keep different company. I also wonder if I’d have better grades in school, or a better home life.
Naturally, I can’t blame 100% of my problems on a few good times, but I know in the back of my mind that other, healthier passions in life would have led me down a completely different path. But I think the mystery of not knowing what will happen next keeps me coming back for more. The out of body experiences that define a night, or a weekend, or my whole life, and the feeling of well-being that tempts me into returning to that state of mind.
If resisting temptation weren’t an issue for the human race, life wouldn’t be interesting, or varied. People would be robots. And although I see the wrong in some temptation, I’ve yet to find a way to fight it. Hence, my path is still staggered, and I’m still searching for an outlet that has yet to come.
Hopefully, this summer will be more grounded. I signed up for online classes today, which makes it feel like the begining of summer...officially. And this essay was the icing on the cake...
I'm just hoping to learn a lot, gain new experiences, knowledge. even if i have to take some bad with the good, im totally prepared.
start your engines...