Even when surrounded friends, I am truly alone.

[xxgrayxx]

On the way home from Star Wars a sad scene happened. I was sharing my thought on one part of the movie and I was ignored three time. Finally, when I had everyone's attention and I was almost finished with what I was saying, Emma interrupted me. Usually, I'm a pretty calm person, and when stuff like that happens, I go on with life. But this has

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[heavenlyway2die]

I can relate... I really can... I was just thinking today of how a lot of people on my LJ friendslist seem to share similar.. um, predicaments and views/viewpoints to me... But, yeah, I know what it's like to become a totally negative person from being positive, what it feels like to feel alone when you're with your friends, when people just don't listen or care...

But I wouldn't recommend shutting yourself off and letting your heart go bad if you can possibly help it...

[chibicherry]

You know, yesterday I spent about two hours crying. I've been so lonely these past days, and I kept wishing you were with me Ais. I've spent hours and hours and hours alone in the house with no one and nothing to do and it's made me miss you so much. I'm sorry you and Emma fought. Tomorrow I have to go stay at Mawmaws, so maybe after work you could come hang out with me.. or if I'm feeling up to it, maybe my mom could drop me off at your house. (I just can't drive yet..) I want us to talk. I want YOU to talk, and I'll listen. I miss you Aislinn.. really..

[xxgrayxx]

To Heavenly: *hugs* Thank you. You're right, I shouldn't shut myself off and let my heart go bad. That would make my life worse, and I would die a lot faster from a broken heart.

To Katy: I'm sorry you've been so lonely. I'm really sorry. I'll see you soon. ^_^

[chibi_ladyrose]

I am really an idiot. I'm always going on and on about how I love Aislinn and that I'm going to protect her and yet I always end up hurting her. I'm not the best friend that I should be. She deserves someone WAY BETTER than me. Someone who loves her unconditionally and will treat her like a queen. She doesn't deserve someone who hurts her every single change she gets

[xxgrayxx]

O_o? Emma.....I don't need to be treated like a queen or anything like that. Emma, you're not a bad friend. Really your not. Every relationship has its problems and ups and downs. I mean, I've done some pretty bad stuff too. I wasn't blaming this whole thing on you or anything. It just that you had triggered something really painful and like I said, I just shut down.

So like, don't go around with a black cloud over your head. AND STOP SAYING THAT YOU ARE PULLING ME DOWN!!!!!! YOU ARE NOT!!!!!!!!

Emma....the phrase wasn't wrong.....I just can't think of the right word for it, but it was befitting for that moment. At least to me it was.