so many random thoughts through my random mind... FUCK!

• who the fuck is keane?
• everyone needs to get a fucking life and stay out of mine!
• spring break needs to come now!
• and you wonder why i have a problem well look at this shit!
• im so glad i have christen and alaina

FUCK THIS!!!! i am trying!! your just being difficult to be different well im over this you dont even know. i try so hard and just because i cant do one thing its my fucking fault what the fuck ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god im so pissed off

ANNOYING

last night was just... annoying and had uncalled for drama. i swear. but i had a nice conversation with rick and made a ton of promises to myself that i have every intend on.... not keeping.... BUT trying to keep as best as i can.

• TRY stop drinking
• TRY not to smoke
• TRY not to be a whore
• TRY not break down under peir pressure
• TRY not to ( Read more... )

just as the story was getting good it hit a ruff spot but i guess thats what keeps it interesting ....

TUESDAY: i had to work and then after work miles danny nate dylan and ryley came over. it was fun. unexpectively though. since it should have been super awkward and everything.

i cant believe this is real... i must be dreaming...

WEDNESDAY: i ( Read more... )

uhh....

• SATURDAY.... i had work which was... fun lol. after work i hung out with mary and jonny boy and jason. it was alot of fun which they insisted that it was a sucky night but i didnt care because we all bonded which is good. *power tools are for pink and black/white ninjas*
• SUNDAY.... i slept til 1 30 and then i had work which was horrible ( Read more... )

i havent wrote in this thing in a couple of days because i have been busy... well sorta

• WEDNESDAY..school was gay and seemed to drag on for ever. after school i had a dentist appointment. i dont like the dentist they scare me. plus i already have good teeth. no need for me to go is what i think. then adam came over which was fun. he like never ( Read more... )

From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right ( Read more... )

its sad when the person who is suppose to know you the best doesnt even understand you... not everything is as easiest as it seems especially when you arent emotionally stable and strong.... thanks for giving up without warning.

goodnight my love

thanks for giving up

fill my emptiness

let me know when you have had enough

edit: i wish i could tell ( Read more... )

well i went to school today be proud lol. but my throat hurts so i might be getting a little sick which isnt good ( Read more... )

smile like you mean it...

last night at work was alot of fun. i was in such a good mood and hyper as all hell. me and mary and carly and barbra all got to work in one department and it was so crazy and fun. i got to be the elevator button pushed for a while. it was so much fun.... oh and the best news was i didnt have to work with danny.... score! ( Read more... )