so..I'm in lakewood. spending the night here with micah, kris, and jonah because really.. I don't like being alone. and..yeah. kris and I are off to pick noah up. aww my lil noah.

I'm not ignoring anyone..internet is down in castle rock. just so everyone knows.

we went to the buddy center this morning. mom's been eyeing this cat there for a while.. so ya know.. she wanted to go adopt her. 2 painful hours of meeting with a counselor and things of the such.. but, we picked up Serena. I've changed her name to Rum n Coke. what? "abby, her name isn't rum n coke" "it is to me. you call her whatever you want." ( Read more... )

my body aches. maybe from the weather.. maybe from the amount of walking I did today (you've gotta clear your head, right?)..maybe it's just from the general lonliness and rejection I feel. as sad as it is to admit.. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. ben was like my rock, ya know? he kept me going. he made me want to wake up the next day ( Read more... )

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I am a member of 3 cliques of size 3

• xximojoangelxxi, disturbedangei, minzplaying
• xximojoangelxxi, destructo_cid, gothic_doll
• xximojoangelxxi, thinkofme, bite_my_neck

well.. okay... hm.

let me tell you how comforting it is to be lonely and feel unwanted by everything and everyone around you.

josiah (brother..) just called and said he was in the hospital "is sarah having the baby?" "she just did" sweet. boy.. Trenton.. 10 pounds.. 7 ounces (what's up with sarah having massive fucking kids? no fucking way I'm passing that through my crotch. no thank you to that) 21 1/2 inches ( Read more... )

the other day.. I saw a cop car with spinners. *SPINNERS*! good god, people ( Read more... )

ouch.. 34 when I get married? *if* I get married, actually. but still man.. whew.. talk about old. I guess it could be worse, right? I could have gotten married when I was like.. 18.. and be divorced by now. I'd rather be older and happy and positive about the person.. than young and stupid. call me crazy.