I'm finally updating again, but unfortunately its only because I'm in a "state" and writing is the only thing I can think to do to clear my head. Which may not even help... Me and billy are fighting, yet again ( Read more... )

I'm missing my boyfriend terribly. I wish he would hurry up and call me and talk to me, I haven't talked to him since last night... It feels longer than it has been tho. I MISS YOU BABY.

You are 93% Scorpio


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Last night I just found out that this guy that I sorta new, George Pierce, died. I was really close to his wife, Erin. I'm really sad and worried about Erin because they have a daughter who's only like 1. I need to get in touch with Erin but I don't have her number anymore. It sucks, I need to find out when his wake is gonna be. I should go. I ( Read more... )

It's really late/early and I can't sleep... have to be awake in like 5 hours, not even close to being tired. No one is on, so there isn't anyone to talk to on messenger, I'm so freakin bored.

I miss Billy really bad. I'm wearing his "Fighters Boxing Experience" shirt, it smells so good. mmmm. I LOVE EEEM. Baby I miss you baaaaaaaaaad.

Well, I'm going to start off with whats been going on the past few weeks since the last time I posted ( Read more... )

Theres been alot going on the past couple of days, Yesterday I found out that this chick I kinda knew died of an overdose... A few people close to me were pretty tight with her, I feel like I should feel worse than I do, I hung out with her a couple times, I know it sucks but I don't feel all that bad. I'm going to the viewing tomorrow... its gonna ( Read more... )

I thought this was funny considering the situation I've been in the past few days.


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I'm sitting at home at 10:57pm bored out of my skull, wondering why I cant get in touch with Billy. I hate the fact that half the time when I call he does not bother to answer his phone, its so rude. The whole "i didn't hear it" "it never rang" lines are getting old and worn. I guess I am easily bothered, maybe I need a reality check, no one is ( Read more... )

I'm at another bad point in my life. My social anxiety is giving me wretched problems, my meds arent helping. Everytime I leave my house I seem to have a panic attack. I force myself to go to school, Its hard to leave. I sit in class and snap my elastic hair bands on my wrist, as stupid as it sounds its a form of therapy I've adapted to control ( Read more... )