turn off the lights and kill me
-why does god hate me?
-why is nora happy tro be single?
-why is it i always come home to find out that i am all alone in this world?
answers:
god loves to fuck with me
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yes,i am the scene asshole you all love to hate.
i wear makeup and girl pants and love to be "fashion core" with the great big ex between the 2 words.
why is it that nobody gives a shit about me? i obviously cant get over the fact that im single and still in love with nora while she does what every girl wish they can do.and yes,it involves tony.
she is happy being single.this fucking proves it.
everything is monotone through my dead fucking doll eyes
people say that even school shootings are better than keeping silence..and i fucking agree,i am done keeping silence.
everyone wants to fuck with my feelings,pretend like i dont fucking care even though im one of the most fucking caring people on earth.
all these little wannabe scene kids LOVE to wish they were heartbroken so they can write a song about it.but while they are out their blowing out their birthday candles,they still wish to be scene and be in heartbreak while I AM
nobody loves me,and i understand it. a certain someone wants to be free and be single and makeout with band guys to live up to "being single",let them. i am fucking done with life,and i am fucking done with this so called "scene"
i suggest everyone does not talk to me for a while..because while i cant frown all the time,i cant smile all the time,either..its a lose-fucking-lose situation.
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on another more caring-more sensitive note:
i fucking hate my life. what kind of man can do the things i do for her? if she thinks a guy from gooser can,then so be it.i cant fucking stop her.becuase we arent together anymore,no matter how much i wish we was.she doesnt fucking care enough to come see me so we can talk but yet she cares enough to go see a guy who she madeo ut with to make sure everything was clear that it didnt mean anything and that things will still be "normal".
what is "normal" nowadays?
its considered normal to make out with some guy while your ex still wishes to be with you and would even die for you.
but it isnt considered normal to kidnap another persons kids and kill them by shoving batteries up their anuses.
these 2 things have something in common:
THEY ARE BOTH CAUSING SOMEBODY HEARTBREAK
i know,you people dont wanan hear about Heartbreak from an emo "scene" kid.but right now,since this is my lj,we are talking about what I WANT
i want a pony,a red waggon,and love.
and being the person that i am living on a ranch and all that,i have ponies.
the only thing that is missing is love.i love somebody but she doesnt care for me like i care for her.
now where the fuck is my little red waggon?
i got a few words for you guys:
fuck all of you. stop trying to get into heartbreak and go play vollyball.
heartbreak is NOTHING that should want to be experianced..cause it leaves you FUCKING DEAD..i have been laid to waste,thrown away..something i never wanted to be.
i feel like i was used,abandoned,and left for dead.now please,email me at regretXthisXkiss@gmail.com if you want heartbreak so i can reply back and tell you what a dumbass you are
OR
come up to me at 5409 midway rd in vacaville California if you want to feel heartbreak so i can bitch-slap you and shove batteries up your anus and make you religious by making you scream "OH MY GOD" while alot of volts are being shoved up your ass.
[notso}sorry if im being mean to you,im just pissed off and suicidal.
not that you guys would give a rats ass to come and help me through everything.
i love you nora..i really do..but i am fucking hurt..and i hope making out with a certain someone made you happy..because now,i feel like dying..and yet there isnt anybody out there who thinks im worth saving..
i wish i can make you see how much i love you.i wish i can record all of our good times onto a video and press play so you can see the fucking look in my eyes when we get locked into a stare and then i can rewind and play it over again,on repeat throughout the whole day with you in my arms..
but i cant..
as much as id love to be everything to you and do everything good andn ice for oyu,i cant.i can only do what i can,and it seems like that isnt enough..
*sigh*..damn,ok,im done for the night..maybe some of you will actually feel what im feeling by reading this..but i am not worth it..