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This may be an inappropriate time to post about other things, so I'm just going to put this behind a cut. My dr. appt was this morning, so it's mostly just for me, but I rarely make things private and would feel weird to start doing so now.
The baby is okay. Heart rate was normal and healthy, 159. I'm now getting rid of the doppler. Dr. examined me, cervix is "strong and closed." She said everything looked good. I gained another 5 pounds. Dr. didn't say anything so I guess it's okay, but it seems like I'm gaining a lot of weight for someone who has hardly been able to eat. I go back in 3 weeks.
I keep thinking about Susan. I keep wishing things were different for her. Or that she tried something different. When I first heard about her, I thought it had to be pills. I was thinking, maybe accidental overdose. When I heard the reality, I somehow felt a new level of sadness for her. Susan is sadly not the first person I have known to take her life. And the questions that are left are enough to drive everyone left behind insane. I'm sorry for what everyone is going through.
The baby is okay. Heart rate was normal and healthy, 159. I'm now getting rid of the doppler. Dr. examined me, cervix is "strong and closed." She said everything looked good. I gained another 5 pounds. Dr. didn't say anything so I guess it's okay, but it seems like I'm gaining a lot of weight for someone who has hardly been able to eat. I go back in 3 weeks.
I keep thinking about Susan. I keep wishing things were different for her. Or that she tried something different. When I first heard about her, I thought it had to be pills. I was thinking, maybe accidental overdose. When I heard the reality, I somehow felt a new level of sadness for her. Susan is sadly not the first person I have known to take her life. And the questions that are left are enough to drive everyone left behind insane. I'm sorry for what everyone is going through.