well, its happend. i have officially given up hope. im tired and broken and there's no way to fix me. everything i've ever worked for, its just gone. the only dream i ever had, my only hope and aspiration, gone. the more work i do, the more everyone else seems to benefit, or maybe its just a really mean joke. i guess i never really wanted it.

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i have nothing left to give to anyone. i'm just too tired.


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what have i done now? it must have been something awful bc it seems that only 2 extraordinary things have happend since ive been here and the rest of the time the shit hits the fan.

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"and there's never any place for people like me to be totally happy ( Read more... )

i am the worst fsu student ever. i just got information sent to me from um and i actually am considering it. wow, so much for being a true seminole eh? whatever, its stupid anyways. but there is lots of scholraship monies and opprotunites. but theres no acabelles friends and no danny and no oncoming traffic friends and its so close to home. but... ( Read more... )

sooooo....here's some halloween pictures and then one random non halloween picture....but i just couldnt resist putting it.....other than that i have no comment except for this week is sooo stressful. still no word from fsu...sad kristina...but the oncoming traffic show last night was quite funny, the night was nice. me, coleen, danny and roxanne ( Read more... )

so, these past 2 weeks have been the most hectic in my life and the hectic-ness jsut keeps on coming like a freakin snowball ladis and gentleman. well, lets see, starting thursday i've gotten a collective 17 hours of sleep and had an anthropology test today which i failed miserably im sure. this means that my beautiful 93% is no more. but things ( Read more... )

so im pulling my first official all nighter even tho i usually stay up this late for no reason anyways....im very very sad right now. super sad...like i said to someone, everything seems to happen to me super sized. anywho, i just wish i could turn parts of my brain off...not the point. so i finished my english paper and ive been studying for this ( Read more... )