I'm tired of this. I need something to happen. Either decision would be alright...I can get over either one. It's uncertainty that's the worst. It just always seems different. Nothing seems certain anymore ( Read more... )

Okay, I may have gone a little over board last entry. I just don't know what to do. I'll act. That's what I want to do. That's what I'm going to do. And I'm gonna deliver this thing I have....either it'll do something, convey the wrong message, or not do anything at all. I'm betting on the latter two because that WOULD happen. But alright. Alright ( Read more... )

Wow. Is all I can say, I guess. I've never fucked up my own life so badly before. I just ruined everything. I lost something that meant more to me than anything else ( Read more... )

I fucking hate this. It better go away before fucking tomorrow. And I hope to god that I didn't get you sick...

So he's gone then.

I'm sure I'll see him soon enough...right?

It's still not the same.

Yeah, real funny.

I'm so happy right now. I'm totally in love. Things are still a little overwhelming, but Jennessa is one thing that eases it a lot. It makes this easier.

I've noticed something. In a lot of livejournal entries I see, people seem to be talking to someone inpeticular but never really state who or even give a direct hint. I assume that ( Read more... )

I hate livejournal. Happy Easter.

This is fucking bullshit.

Now, I don't mean to make the cliche and rather general statement, but I can't wait to move out. It's not that I hate, or even dislike my mother, not that at all. I just want to leave. I don't like the feeling of my entire life being in someone else's hands anymore. So once I get that job...I'm saving up. By the end of my senior year, I'm moving ( Read more... )

What a douchebag I am.

Learn from my mistakes, I guess.