wow i havent posted/read this thing in ages.

i'd just like to do a shout out to all mah girls that i love love love.
LKTORIARACH...<3 sydney rae says hellooooooo

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good Souls are hard to find
good men whose hearts are kind

walkIng with purpose
with Eyes so deep you could get Lost inside

a man of few words
but drOwning in his thoughts ( Read more... )

get up and dust off the dirt gotta get up one more time.

i really dont know what to do with myself ( Read more... )

i feel like i am a little kid waiting, waiting for a christmas that will never come.
waiting for the snow that will never fall from the sky
waiting for phone call from grandma
waiting for things to fall in place...
i will wait forever and then the day will come when i get a box full of coal for christmas...and i
didnt deserve a bit of it.

GOOOOOOOSSSSS BLAH BLAH

so i cant drive for almost two weeks because i blacked out/had a seizure twice...and if my EEG comes back all crazy like then i may not be able to drive for 6 whole months...i am going crazy with emotion. i dont know what to do. i feel like i have no control over me anymore. i cant drive i have to rely on people around me for rides and i HATE doing ( Read more... )

its like after you break a bone or get a shot of something to numb the pain...it doesnt quite feel the same anymore, or for a while anyway. that is kinda how i feel. still numb. to everything. i get in these slumps every once in a while. i feel like the world is spinning around me and i am stuck frozen in the middle with nothing to hold on to, ( Read more... )

go with the flow ( Read more... )