After much debate and questioning, I think that I should probably just embrace the fact that I'm pretty much alone. Physically I'm not, but emotionally I am for the most part. Nobody knows what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling, what I'm truly longing for. But, think about, who really cares in the long run? I don't mean that in a pity way, I'm being ( Read more... )

I feel like I've written this blog already, but I'm going to say it again. This summer sucked and it's not even over yet. Last year I wrote basically the same thing about how summer blew hardcore, but I think this one sucks as well. Nobody likes eachother anymore (but I can live with that for the most part), there's hardly any fun time since Round ( Read more... )

So, it's been about two weeks since my last update and I figured while I'm making my morning coffee I'd give a little glimpse into the world of Play Dead as of now ( Read more... )

This song seems extremely appropriate for me lately. If you question it, then maybe you should take the advice in the song. If you smile, then you know what I'm talking about. And, if you get pissed, then get the fuck over it ( Read more... )

I'm feeling a shit load of guilt lately. It could just be the anxiety getting to me, but whatever it is, it's pretty bad. I feel like I haven't been there for people who needed me. I feel like I've neglected the people I love the most. I feel like a failure. I feel like I'm useless. I feel like I'm nothing. And I feel like I'm a shit friend ( Read more... )

I got a job at Strack's aka: The 7th Circle of Hell. Now, yes, I need a job. I have some expenses that I need to take care of like car insurance, getting a lap top for school, paying for my choir trip to New York, among other things. I fully understand this need to do something for a certain amount of hours in a day, get a piece of paper every two ( Read more... )

As much as I hate to admit it and for as long as I tried to fight it off, I'm afraid the inevitable has happened. Technology has seduced me, bought me dinner, had it's way with me...and I liked it. Damnit ( Read more... )

Congrats to Gerard Way on his first born daughter and the first My Chemical Romance baby: Bandit Lee Way!!!! <33333333

Also, congrats to Mikey Way for being an uncle!!! Him and Alicia need to get on the baby train soon!

I'm a fangirl.

Neurotically Yours,
Play Dead

EDIT: Jaz, you fucked up. Bandit's a girl. Thanks for informing us wrong.

To all the fan fic readers ( Read more... )

This is the first of a few entries entitled, "I Need To Learn to Accept..." in which I write about all the things in my life I need to learn to deal with and eventually accept. This one may be extremely childish, but I have a feeling a lot of these will be. Still, I have issues with things that I need to get sorted out. Also, since I won't be back ( Read more... )