My confession

[xxpogixx]

I dont know exactly whats been going on these past couple of days, but ive been really.....how you say..... not depressed..... but Ive lost hope? Hope is what i hold onto when I am depressed, and going thru hard times. but ive learned that no matter how hard I hold onto hope, or how much I want something. I cant keep hold of hope. Im tired if

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sigh

[cookiegrrrl]

are you tired of bitching? i dont know you and this is not to be mean. i bitch alot personally but all that aside stop giving a fuck. maybe you think its not that simple but it kinda is. spend some time with things that YOU like, things that make you YOU. put on your favorite cd and draw. dance around the room naked. go out front draw with chalk. read a book about something you like on your roof. blow bubbles from the roof. write a song. spend some time remembering how you became you. You are what draws people to you. dont lose yourself and the rest will come.

Guh

[angelfack]

You know what I'm tired of? I'm tired of you complaining about things that you can change.

The things you can't change? Yeah, everyone goes through that. You can't just manipulate every minute detail in your life to make it go just how you want it. It doesn't work that way.

Oh, and that Sarah thing... honestly, dude. We've talked about this 14,000 and 3/4 times. Sarah was a little off her rocker, and she got her jollies by making you feel like shit. Why the fuck would you want that? Not telling her how beautiful she is/was is the stupidest thing I've ever heard, because she doesn't deserve that. And I hope she reads this, I hope she reads that I think she was a manipulative bitch and that she should burn for making you go through your own personal hell.

You're one of the most down-to-earth people I know, but you have to learn not to let the small shit get to you. You don't like something? Back off from it. No one is forcing a gun to your temple and telling you what to do. It's all up to you.

Re: Guh

[xxpogixx]

yah, I know.... she WAS off her rocker... and no matter how much you told me I didnt want to belive it. your completly right. you know how I get....... and you always keep me in check.. Im really trying to turn shit around. Its just hard for me, I really dont know how to go about it.

[cookiegrrrl]

as i put more thought into this (me commenting on YOUR lj) i say damn i hate when people choose to read MY shit and bitch about it. sorry dude. its your journal. its your place to vent if i dont like it i shouldnt read it. but in my small amount of denfense you added me. you are the very strange boy who seems to know an aweful lot about me though i confess to knowing nothing of you. aside from nexus have we ever spoken? you know where i use to hang out and work and where i currently hang out but ummmm who are you again? and i was trying to be helpful earlier with my previous comment...but im done doing that b/c it seems kinda intrusive. peace

[xxpogixx]

weve actualy talked alot when I used to go to the mall alot. but Im sure you talk to Alot of people at the mall . You just dont remember me, but I remember you. Is that really strange? Youve never meet someone, that for some weird ass reason you remember? I dont know alot about you.... you worked at the mall..... im sure EVERYONE knew you worked at the mall..... you hang out at nexus..... I hangout at nexus...... you used to go to Rays Downtown blues..... I used to go to Rays..... see someone enough they stick in your brain. I dont even know your name. heh.

Its not intrusive, but this IS my spot to vent. but If I hear no feedback from anyone, I wont really know other views, and opinions about it. I will only know mine, and ill think that my view and understanding is the only way...... witch isnt right IMO...

so if ya have a comment, comment away.