Everything is just alright, I guess
I have been delaying to post here for months.It is because I am too lazy to do so or I simply do not want to do it. Anyways, nothing important to report about me.Same old, same old.
What am I doing these days?
*Reading books (lots of them,actually.Whenever I feel down,I go to bookstore and buy couple of books these days)
*Waiting for season 2 of Hannibal
*Trying to meet new people and fail it perfectly while doing so (why do all the creepy guys find me,eh? do I have some kind of weirdos-attraction magnet on me)
*watching Helix basically for this dude and having a crush on him.
He is the only one to put a smile on my face.The show is average,it has its moments.
And get this,he is a VILLAIN! I can't hate him even if he murdered one of my favourite character on the show:( Be prepared to see this pretty face more if I can update more.
*wondering whether I should consult someone professional about my never-changing and ending depressive mood.No jokes,here. I know everybody uses this phrase "I feel depressed" but I fear that those feelings just won't go away. I feel OK mostly until my mood changes without a reason and find myself feeling sad over unimportant stuff.I don't enjoy doing anything.I can't feel the taste of the food and I feel very angry and tired during the day.I wake up early and have difficulty to sleep again:( I just can't describe how long I am in this state of mind.The worst period was sometime near the New Year's holiday and then I went to visit my best friend for eight days. When I came back home, there was nothing unusual.Soon it started again and this time it feels worse than before.I just don't want to discuss these with anybody because I am sick and tired of hearing the same sentences from different people (Actually there are two people I can talk to right now and they are really busy with their own lives) I sometimes overanalyze myself and try to find answers but good lord,I even feel tired to convince myself.
But this is life,right.You have to figure the way out till the end of your days.
What am I doing these days?
*Reading books (lots of them,actually.Whenever I feel down,I go to bookstore and buy couple of books these days)
*Waiting for season 2 of Hannibal
*Trying to meet new people and fail it perfectly while doing so (why do all the creepy guys find me,eh? do I have some kind of weirdos-attraction magnet on me)
*watching Helix basically for this dude and having a crush on him.
He is the only one to put a smile on my face.The show is average,it has its moments.
And get this,he is a VILLAIN! I can't hate him even if he murdered one of my favourite character on the show:( Be prepared to see this pretty face more if I can update more.
*wondering whether I should consult someone professional about my never-changing and ending depressive mood.No jokes,here. I know everybody uses this phrase "I feel depressed" but I fear that those feelings just won't go away. I feel OK mostly until my mood changes without a reason and find myself feeling sad over unimportant stuff.I don't enjoy doing anything.I can't feel the taste of the food and I feel very angry and tired during the day.I wake up early and have difficulty to sleep again:( I just can't describe how long I am in this state of mind.The worst period was sometime near the New Year's holiday and then I went to visit my best friend for eight days. When I came back home, there was nothing unusual.Soon it started again and this time it feels worse than before.I just don't want to discuss these with anybody because I am sick and tired of hearing the same sentences from different people (Actually there are two people I can talk to right now and they are really busy with their own lives) I sometimes overanalyze myself and try to find answers but good lord,I even feel tired to convince myself.
But this is life,right.You have to figure the way out till the end of your days.