So, I guess Scott doesn't hate me. That's good. He apologized on Friday about how he acted at the show. He said he really wants me as a friend and I said I was willing to try to make that work. We saw eachother at the De La Hoya show, and he smiled this time. That's an improvement. Heh ( Read more... )

Well, Scott hates me. I'm pretty sure that's a safe thing to assume. I broke it off last Friday. Not because I "found a replacement", not because he was a bad boyfriend, but just because I wasn't in love with him. Not the kind of love I'm hoping to find anyway. And I couldn't keep the relationship going if I didn't feel that way. It'd be like ( Read more... )

Today I feel down. Just a bad day. A hug would help. I wish I had a friend who was generous with hugs ( Read more... )

Wow. Last night was awesome. This kid(Jason) posted that he went to Oswego on emocuse last night. So I replied, saying that I also go there. We exchanged a few messages on the messageboard, then moved to AIM. He messaged me at about 12:05 this morning, and we talked until 9am, when I had to go to class. It was really cool. He is the first ( Read more... )

It's gorgeous outside today. It's really sunny and pretty, but also there is a good breeze, so it's not too hot. Days like yesterday are too hot for me. I'd much prefer weather in the 60s, maybe low-mid 70s. Then you can go outside and enjoy the nice weather, but not be uncomfortable from the heat. I'm going to go outside and have a picnic now ( Read more... )

I have serious problems. I am seriously fucked up, I think. Yesterday, Scott was supposed to come up after work. But he had a bad day, so he decided not to. And I got all upset about it. More upset than I should have been. I guess I was just pretty disappointed ( Read more... )

Heh. Ooops. And I even told people that I would update this too! Grrr. Why is it that I have no motivation to do...ANYTHING? *sigh ( Read more... )

So, haven't posted in here for a long time. I met Doug, he didn't like me apparently. Oh well. I'm over that. Ummm...I had two of the guys who I thought were my sweet friends try to come on to me...one of them with a girlfriend. I mean, I thought I had all these cool guy friends...they were always really sweet while I had a boyfriend...now I'm ( Read more... )

So, last night I drove to Ithaca to meet Doug. It didn't start off well, considering I was a half hour late, and he was standing in the cold with only a hoodie on. Sorry! I felt so awful. *sigh* So, then we walked back to my car and head to his dorm. Ithaca is soooo confusing. And that campus! We took like a million different turns to end ( Read more... )

Well, I'm home now. Yay. It's more boring here than it was at school. At least at college, I had classes to occupy me for some part of the day. Here I have all day long with no one around, and no vehicle. Ick. Next week will be better. It's Christmas and New Year's, and my mom has the whole time off. So that will be nice ( Read more... )